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Thank you so much!! T0T💖💖💖 Though I started the comic early on, I am so happy that I managed to get Shiro and Keith’s characterisation correct enough that some of it got REAL CLOSE re: Keith’s disciplinary problems and Keith making the killing blow to a character who plays a big part in Shiro’s trauma. 

Okay, um, I loved this prompt too much not to do it. Warning for Jared/Gavin.

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The meeting adds itself to his Hooli calendar. As always, the heading reads Personal Management (“a critical aspect of being a CEO,” as his boss has been keen to remind him). Jared will be expected at Gavin’s no later than 3:05pm on the dot.

Gavin keeps any number of “boys” around, for any number of nefarious purposes. There is the blood boy, the pool boy, the gym boy, the kitchen boy. And Jared himself is something of an all-purpose model. When he arrives today, he’ll be expected to do some minor housework, review the day’s tech news with Gavin, then strip and wait for him in the bedroom - knees and elbows in the center of the opulent, four-poster bed.

It’s so large it feels like an ocean. And Jared is out to sea here. Lost.

His least favorite part is when Gavin makes him watch in the mirror. Wrenching his head back, exposing his throat. It’s large and gold-veined, installed against the wall where there would otherwise be a headboard. And Gavin stares straight into it through most of their encounters - anytime his mouth is not busy elsewhere - admiring his own technique.

Jared hates to see them in these moments. Gavin’s savage, ravenous smile; his pathetic, foolish face. Forced to bear witness to the shame of his own pleasure, at the hands of a man he both admires and detests. He casts his eyes down toward the mattress.

“Eyes up,” Gavin chides him. A hand under Jared’s chin redirects his gaze.

He expects Gavin is holding him tight enough to leave bruises. He expects that is precisely his intent.

“Look how lucky you are,” Gavin says, thrusting inside him, harder, and each word feels like a punch. “You’re getting fucked by Gavin Belson. Don’t you dare look away again. Do you know how many boys would kill to be right where you are? To follow every one of my fucking orders? Not pull this disobedient bullshit.”

Oh goodness, Jared thinks, oh Donald. If the kids at the home could see you now.

“Jared, honey, stop pacing, you’re making me nauseous.” Monica says, adjusting her position in bed. “Come here, lie down and we can talk about this.”

Jared sits on the edge of the bed, his knee bouncing nervously. “What if I’m a bad parent?” he asks in a small voice. “What if...what if everything I went through made me bad? What if I inflict that on our baby?”

Monica stretches an arm towards him. “Come closer, I’m the size of a whale and can’t move to hug you,” she says. Jared obeys, lying down on his side next to her and staring at her with wide, scared eyes.

“Darling, you’re not a bad person,” Monica says, rubbing his back. “You’ve been through awful things, but you’re not going to be a bad parent. You’re going to be a wonderful parent. And if anything happens you’ll have me. You have nothing to worry about, I’ve seen you with my nephews, you’re going to be amazing.”

Jared sniffles. “I’m just...scared,” he says in that same small frightened voice. “It’s a lot of responsibility.”

“It is,” Monica says, “but I think we can handle it.” She kisses his forehead. “I always knew I wanted to be a mother,” she says. “I just didn’t think I’d have two babies to worry about.”

So many men in Jared’s life have hurt him that he doesn’t feel safe or comfortable thinking of himself as a man, feels safer and happier in the company of women. But when he’s with women he still feels like he’s invading the space.

I feel like he just doesn’t like to think about his gender but the identity that seems to fit him best is agender. 

I think as a college student or young adult he went to a support group for abuse survivors but he was the only masculine-presenting person there and people kept talking about how horrible men are and he just felt so uncomfortable that it made him physically ill.

This is amazing, thank you so much. Would you at all be interested in making this scenario or that scene you mentioned into a fic?

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