@reqeuims : don't make this any harder than it needs to be.
there’s silence at expense , thought you’ve had a middle ground and fair share of conversations , though whenever his history or his job was on the table of topic , there’s coldness that fills the air . you never pushed , but some days she felt like secrets were piling on top of another and you never knew whether [ YOU ALSO WERE JUST A PAWN ] . no labels or confirmation of feelings yet , but from after nights , multiple occasions of slowly building a connection , you thought maybe it was going somewhere .
let your guard down so quickly again . stupid . when were you going to learn ?? all of them were the same . —the silence breaks from scoff releasing as you stand , really , you were just reciprocating the energy back . “oh so we’re just playing games is that what this is?” the light sharp tone in voice snapping at him , a discourse of once patient energy now just bothered . “you know I only ask because I—” quickly held back before regretting anything . “—because I thought we were close . or at least , y’know after everything I’ve told you, You knew that you could trust me.”