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HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KELSEY!!!!!! 

Hope your day is FANFUCKINGTASTIC!

Hello lovely readers! 

Quite a few people have been messaging me asking when the next instalments of the fic are going to be posted, and as writing fan fiction is a part time hobby of mine that I can only indulge in occasionally, I am unable to submit my chapters with a set regularity. I've had a busy couple of weeks and I honestly don't know when I'm going to get a chance to finish chapter 7, but it will happen. There will be 20 chapters of this story in total as is stands currently. 

Here you go dear anon….

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Maybe there weren’t any?

WELL. A while back, I was reading Tom Bidwell's twitter (ahem), and he mentioned having used a certain song in S1 but it ended up being in a deleted scene. SO THERE'S AT LEAST ONE OUT THERE!

sure!

it's a screenshot from the official jash site.

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greenangelheart/dissertationcanwait collaboration fic

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The bed gave a satisfying creak as Finn flopped down onto the unmade sheets.  He ignored his Dad’s shouted greeting of hello up the stairs as he lay there following the lines of the cracks on his ceiling with his eyes.  Sitting back up he grabbed his guitar from where it was propped up at the end of his bed, and began running his fingers over the strings feeling them twang back against his skin.  He could see why all the best songs were derived from some sort of heartache as the chords naturally took on a melancholic tune as his fingers tried to make sense of the thoughts and feelings rattling around inside of him, each note an expression of some buried emotion.

Yes there had been times before when it felt like his whole world would come crashing down around him, as his and Rae’s relationship hung by an invisible thread.  There had been times dominated by shouting, and slammed doors, and recriminations, and accusations, and times when Finn would have got a kick out of the fiery passion blazing in Rae’s eyes if he wasn’t so damned pissed off with her.

Like when they had been dating for just a few months.  Rae had turned seventeen, and her Mum had paid for her provisional driving licence as a present for her.  She had arrived at his house beaming and full of plans for future road trips they could make, and the places they could travel to when she could share in the driving responsibilities as well.  He hadn’t hesitated when she’d suggested he could teach her how to drive, as she pointed out the stupidity of paying for some stuck-up driving instructor when her boyfriend could drive and had access to a car.  That very evening for her first attempt he had driven them up to the local industrial estate, he remembered his Dad taking him here once to have a go in his car when he was a bit younger.  Here she could have a practice in the well-loved Vauxhall Nova before risking it on the proper roads.  His Dad had laughingly warned him as he left the house that giving his girlfriend driving lessons would only end in tears but wished him well.  Those words of advice rang in his ears as Rae repeatedly failed to get the car started as she flooded the engine unable to master the manual choke at first.  After much cursing though the car finally purred to life for her, and in her excitement she accidently floored the accelerator and her foot came off the clutch too quickly sending the car hurtling forwards, crashing over a speed bump before she brought it back under control.  Suffice to say after he clambered out of the car to discover the exhaust now half hanging off he hadn’t reacted that well to Rae’s accusations about his abilities, or lack thereof, as a teacher.  They didn’t speak for days as they let the dust settle, and they never attempted another driving lesson together after this.

Or there was that incident he felt particularly stupid about now.  He could always feel Rae tensing beside him if a girl so much as looked in his direction, but she never seemed to understand that watching her and Archie together used to make him feel like he had been hit in the gut with a sledgehammer.  The knowledge that Rae had wanted to be with Archie before him cut him up, and when they were together there were still the exchanged looks, shared smiles, and just a bubbling undercurrent of something that he couldn’t quite put his finger on. It didn’t matter that Rae always returned to his side, eyes shining at him as she linked her hand back with his, he was sure than in those moments if you cut him open you would find his blood was boiling and spitting green with jealousy.  Maybe it was because he didn’t express himself very well, but Rae would always just tut at him, rolling her eyes, telling him he was bloody idiot, but there was never a denial or an explanation for their closeness.  Then one night in the pub, when Archie was back for a weekend from university, after one (or four) too many Finn found himself inches away from punching Archie in his smug face.  It had ended up with Rae, Archie and him stumbling outside, him all ready for a fight if need be, but then Archie had half-whispered half-shouted that he was gay.  Finn had felt like such a dick that night, and for a good while afterwards and Rae didn’t see him for a week, not even to hear his apologies, though Archie had been maddeningly gracious about the whole thing.

As the last note of the tune faded away under his fingertips he considered that this time was different.  There had been no shouting or screaming, no argument to make up, no heat of the moment comments to apologise for, nothing out of the ordinary at all, and yet it felt to him like everything had changed and it had left him feeling wretched.  He made a conscious decision to push these feeling down, he and Rae should be celebrating her achievement.  Placing his guitar carefully onto the bed he levered himself up, and walked over to the wardrobe quickly changing out of his shop uniform into jeans and a t-shirt.

Eep, Dear Anon, well I’m fangirling right back, lovely little messages like these just make my day!  I’m so flattered you like my writing, but you are quite correct dissertationcanwait is beyond awesome!!