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A Journey [ 28-06-2020]

A clear Sunday afternoon, Yat and I are deciding a place to meet, I had started to read him a book - The Little Prince, we were to meet and I'd continue reading the book. We decided to finish lunch and then meet at a park, sit under a tree, eating cookies and sharing thoughts about the book. Just an hour past our conversation, i'd finished lunch and I was about to leave, a sudden down pour. An unexpected shower, it was still clear near his place but I couldn't step out coz of the rain.

I was bummed, restless and impatient, I had missed him way too much , I wanted to meet him, talk to him and look at his face while he reacted to anything and everything I said. I wanted to sit under that giant tree and live a movie scene. I kept looking at the window hoping it would stop raining the next second, it poured for an hour and started to slow down and drizzle, I was all excited again, I run to my phone to see his message, "Now, it's raining here". I gave up on hoping to meet him that day. I told him, I'll change and maybe even nap till evening. I was sad, it felt like things never go my way.

I wake up from my nap, I see it is dark outside, mom's back from work. I went to the kitchen to help mom make a snack, food always makes me feel better. I'm chopping vegetables thinking about how the day could've been so different if only it hadn't rained and my phone lights up to a message, it's his, it says "Can you meet me now? I want to end my week with you". I usually don't go out after dark, but I knew I wanted to meet him more than anything and I instantly agreed with a smile on my soul.

I meet him, he seems to be anxious about something, he was walking faster than usual, he wanted to find somewhere to sit, he had a book in his hand. I was a little concerned and very clueless of why he was being so. We find a dim lit stairs of a building, as soon as we sit, he says, " I love you a lot". I'm speechless, I'm immobile, mostly numb and could feel a million unexplainable emotions filling me. He takes out a letter from between the book, 2 page long, I am still very incapable of utter a single word as I sit there next to him. His hand written letter had every tiny detail of every meet, tiny details about me and most subtly expressive words, I kept aww-ing throughout.

I was not sure how to react, I didn't know what I was feeling, I still am pretty unsure about whether I love him or not. All I could think about was my career and my priorities right now, not that he isn't, I am sure that I feel so many things about him now that I am not sure which one to hold on to. I explained this to him as best as I could, he was still very hapy that he confessed, I'm happy I have him. Can't wait to explore the feelings in me, what all of this means to me and to find out if 'A Journey' is 'The Journey'.

Thank you for patiently reading through all of this. If you did, you made me feel heard. Hope you have amazing days ahead!!

I don't know if anyone will ever read it. But I think this is a kind of story telling with unknown to none audience, it's euphoric to record all this.

I kind of enjoyed it, even if there were a lot of times when I just want to hit both Jag and El on the head for being stupid, prejudiced and unreasonable. Not to mention that although the series happened in a span of 20 years, it could have been told in a single book.

I must also admit that a part of me liked the series because the female and male lead got together just half way through the first book. The only downside, though, was that the couple had to go through hell before finally getting their happily ever after (I know they had to considering it was a trilogy!).

And I also can’t help hut notice that a LOT of pages were just smut! I think I skipped half of the series because I need to pass up on all of them! Makes me wonder if the series molded after the Grey one?

But as they say, no matter how long the procession takes, it will still all end up in church. The happy ending took a long time coming and I couldn’t help but sigh a ‘finally!’ when I got to the end.