#disappionted

nothing more disappointing than when someone you know becomes someone you knew

I'm so disappointed in myself.

Gah gala was a total bust. First of all, I was seated separately from all of my friends and put at this table with supposedly "best friends" of a fellow dancer. All of whom were in their mid thirties. So out of about eight people, me and some random dude are the only single people at our table, and of course we are seated next to each other. First thing he says to me: "You are my date now"..... honestly?! To make matters worse he was stuck up and gross. We managed to find some things to talk about it, but the whole dinner was a dud. Then I finally get to leave and go find my friends, who as it turned out all got to sit next to each other. And happened to have an extra seat for me. Ohhhh the irony. By the time I fully caught up with everyone, they were all piss drunk and wanting to dance like crazy. And you know what? They left me all alone to go dance, while some sleeze-bag gross dude came and hit on me. When I got away from him, everyone was even more drunk and drama was stirring. So I had some nice conversations with people, which was about the only highlight of my evening. By the time In felt comfortable enough to dance, the party was winding down, my feet hurt like crazy, drama was taking center stage, and like I said before, everyone was wasted. I couldn't handle it. I wasn't having fun at all, and the whole night I wished I had an actual date or someone who would have stuck by me the whole time. I felt so ugly, self-conscious, and disappointed the entire night. Maybe if I could of let loose a little bit I would have had a better night. MAybe that's just the story of my life, I'm all business and no play. I guess I just don't know how to have a good time. Well whatever.....at least Lindsy said I have better boobs than Ansa.