#disabilitysucks

Looks like I'm not making it to EJS this yr. #Tonka needs coil covers (BAD) & a 3 link upgrade... don't have $ for either. Hoping I can get something that fits into budget asap, as I've crawling for cops & Wind Rock very soon. Wish me luck! I may be broken, but I'm not dead... I'll get there, just going to take me a bit longer then others. #disabilitysucks #Moab #areabfe #rockcrawler #coilovers #shocks #suspension

To those who think I'm not disabled and can't work...(it's not going to be pretty so if you don't care for bad language, don't read it...)😡😡😡 To all of those who can LOOK at me and DIAGNOSE ME based on how you think I look or behave. You are FUCKING AMAZING! You can diagnose me like a hepatologist(autoimmune of liver, stage 4 cirrhosis), rheumatologist (fibromyalgia), neurologist (migraines), endocrinologist (hashimotos/hypothyroidism), psychiatrist (anxiety and depression), orthopedic surgeon (totaled 2 cars). That's AWESOME that you have those skill sets and you feel the need to tell me what I need. All the $ I'll save on MRI's, endoscopes, ultrasounds, bloodwork, urine work, X-rays, medications, therapies, etc. , time and effort going to see all these docs because YOU can LOOK at me and know I'm not REALLY that sick. That I REALLY can work because YOU think so. That I'm not really in that much pain, feel that awful because YOU KNOW MORE THAN THE PHYSICIANS, and ME. Hell, super man only has X-ray vision. You're better than super man!!! You could make bank money doing diagnostics at hospitals with your ASTOUNDING SUPER POWERS. So why aren't you???? Yeah, that's right. You know shit about what's going on with me. So STFU. Quit being so judgmental. Just love me where I'm at or GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY WAY. I only have time for the lovers, not the haters.

Well just heard they’re going to fix my Mini Cooper. She had water damage to the tune of $3400. I have mixed feelings. On one hand, I LOVE my mini. I had 2 minis while stationed in England. She’s fast. She’s distinctive. We’ve bonded. She also needs new tires, an oil change and a new windshield… She’s a 2002. I also was borrowing my son’s car while she was down but his car has a head gasket problem… While my car was in shop, I was positive she was going to be totaled out so I caught new car fever. Here’s the hard part; I’m on disability. I have stage 4 cirrhosis from an autoimmune of liver. Fibromyalgia. Hashimotos/hypothyroidism. And totaled 2 cars. I worked from 16-50, 1,2 sometimes 3 jobs. My disabilities have robbed me of my future, my health, my income and potential income. I didn’t make enough money to secure another car and I don’t make enough to pay deductible on current car. I make too much money for assistance yet not enough to live on. I served my country. Put myself through college. Raised 3 kids by myself. Worked my ass off for what? To be left behind? To struggle to make ends meet still? So I have 2 cars, neither which I can afford to fix and a new one I can’t afford to buy…