#dilf vent

its four am and im splicing my fucking hair bc i thought three packs was gonna do it. just fucking splicing and deboning. but its okay. because i love this hairstyle on me. whether i go bald after this though is not up to me anymore. i just know i did my best in my current present and ill have to let future me deal with this in two months time. itll be cooler then so maybe ill just finally begin my wig era. bald but free at least.

the engagement bait has gotten me once more. im tired of seeing on tiktok something about rich people flexing and making fun of the poor and the comments just doxxing that person. so tired of it because when are folks going to understand that that is what they think of us and attacking one person online and dming them shit is gonna fix it. like dont get me wrong yes we should have public records of people who have money so we can surely eat them right back but would you like it if i just went up to you and laughed at your face because your hairs razzled from the weather and the jacket youre wearing isnt fitting and youve got no perfume going, and skinny jeans with walmart flip flops? like for example if. i had worn that going to the store and got laughed at even by a child, its a core memory of self hate. like oh i should wear a dress next time or something. and sure a rich person laughing at me would tear my ego, but the first thing to come in mind isnt to distribute their wealth, its practically violence. im obviously angry at the idea of one person having an abundance of money just to hoard it. a rich person saying they got where they are because they worked hard or their parents worked hard or whatever and poor people chose to be poor these rich people need more than a doxing. youre gonna find out how many properties they own , how much money they make, where they work, and then what??? there is no cancel culture for these people. they think so low about us. racism cannot even catch up with the mind of a billionaire. they think of us so lowly yet we all come from the same shit thats in flowers and entire planets. the same bones and organs yet they want ours on a platter simply because of a piece of paper and a plastic rectangle. and im so tired of everyone thinking stalking them online and messaging them is the solution. youre not even gonna remember their name. youre gonna forget their name and yet they have the absolute to forget your entire existence. quite literally living two entirely different lives, yeah lets go ahead and call them a bunch of names and spam them. like what the hell are we doing here. how far will ethics go until it gets to lives are lost because of greed.

the situation used to bother me from time to time but out of that i learned that what i did to someone close i swore id never do again, simply because yes i was just crazy and in my head at the time. but now that what i once did has finally happened to me, and now that i have felt the full experience, the confusion, the anger, the peeping of the profile, the acceptance-- ive been released from the vicious cycle and its now passed onto the next delusional woman. im FREE!

as much as i want my 2026 goal to happen ( a fat ass ) im thinking my real goal here is to get rid of all of my fucking bins. im tired of being a hoarder and bins dont do anything but make my problems worse. i wanna get right on an art cart and put all of my childhood memories laminated and in a binder for starters. but what the hell am i going to do with my hair products and beauty products . THATS something that'll prob get better when we move, because once i get my own room i can have that desk where ppl do makeup on i forgot the name but THAT is where all my hair abd beauty products will go

and idk i really want to like marvel rivals more. i just have so many issues with it, im almost lord mantis but i want to give up. like its her playstyle that makes her so rare but shes only good if my team is cracked out already.

how do you remove a neighbor from your complex without calling 911 on them

weird that you made someone else scope out the vibe just for everything that was gathered by them misinterpreted and misunderstood. dont reach out to me ever again