#digiblog

I’m a swagger man, but sometimes everything seems more complicated then yesterday. It feels like one step forward and three steps back. There is a voice in me that is telling me what to do to be effective and productive, but none of them include the things that bring me happiness. I think that’s what kills me. I’m losing interest in my friends, I really do feel like a drag.... but it really doesn’t matter and this feeling isn't like the ones from before. I need a genuine break from the life I have known. 

I like to tell myself that money doesn’t own me, but It has me doing the most. I always felt less fortunate than others.. but being poor is finally getting to me. I have a problem with the system because I can’t fully focus with work to bring my family and myself out of the shit hole we fell in. 

I like to say money isn't everything but god knows how much it helps. God knows how much I need it.

I want to re-ivent myself, like a reset button.