#differentboy

Got a phone call today which has finally placed me on the first few steps of the career ladder! You have to go through the shit before the good comes and you are never given something you cannot handle!

I really believe that everything happens for a reason. 2014 has been truly awful. I have been fucked over by people and consequently screwed myself over. Well no more!

Dear different boy,

So I haven't really stuck to the original plan of writing an entry every day but you know what, I have been too busy to follow that commitment. Hmm.. what has happened since I last wrote well..... I am one step closer to starting my new job. My checks have all come back clear and now I am just waiting for my employer reference to come back which is pissing me off because its simple to just fill a form out for me. This is important for crying out loud.

I am so looking forward to December 27th eeek. This is when I go to Ireland for a week. Literally so excited. Ireland has always been my home. My true home. I feel closer to my Irish roots than my British ones and it is such an escape for me. I am genuinely happy when I am there and around my family over there, a lot happier than I could ever be here!

Been busy today which is good. Keeping busy is always good for me to keep my mind of a lot. Another thing I do to keep my mind of all the shit going on around me is to write. You would never have guessed ay? haha. I LOVE writing poetry, I really do. I have an ongoing project called Mind, Body and Soul which consists of the poetry you will find published on my Tumblr page already with more to follow... imagination is a big thing for me. It always has been and having a flexible imagination is really important as far as I am concerned. I have a concept and a premise and a idea board already constructed for an upcoming novel :) I will do it. Its a big goal for me in life! To write the book I would enjoy to read.

I will say nothing surprises me anymore because I have pretty much seen and heard everything within the vicinity. Holding your tongue is one of the most difficult things you will ever have to do, especially when something requires your fighting strength to overcome it and disagree but most of the time you have to blank it out and ignore it. That's all I seem to do these days because I am not in a position where I can disagree which frustrates me beyond belief! When I am gone however, I have a plan and I will no longer be in a position where my tongue is restricted. I am not surprised by anything because to a certain extent I know the absolute truth, my experiences have served me well to build walls and protect myself from the onslaught of subtle yet damaging actions. I am not the person I was ten years ago, I am not fooled by your false camaraderie, this environment is transparent. I am not stupid!