#diebysixspades

i think this one is pretty spot on. i've been searching for captain's jacket and i havent found it yet, so im wearing the flight-crew one. i really want to dress up as that gabe saporta's outift from wwwy 2024 because to be honest.. it looked super cool and i think.. yeah why not. i found the cap and the sunglasses, so i hope i could find the rest. i really want them.

to make the style more accurate (in a way), i changed my hairstyle to light brown ponytail with bangs and why do i look like a man. anyway that is not too important, because my peonies garden is growing SUPER fast and now they are everywhere. nice, but it feels stuffed. i'll move some of them somewhere soon i think.

one weird thing that confuse me are these lilies suddenly grows right above the beach. i didnt plant anything here, but it suddenly grows and i dont know who did this. it looks cool though, the lemon tree kind of making sense.

moose also left this week and marcel is coming to town. well.. i dont have anything to say about this, i dont really like them as much as i did to kiki and papi, but i hope they will be nice to me. i found out that marcel is a dog and i think he's a little toot. you know.. he got the toot vibes.

last thing, i celebrated zell's birthday yesterday! i was searching for kiki because she isnt home, then i found out that she was celebrating zell's birthday. i gave zell an emerald because the visit was unprompted, but he still accepted it and actually.. he is pretty kind and nice. he kept saying thank you when i tried to talk to him, and my heart was moved (is that even the right words..)

first up, this is my most favorite song ever from the album santi and if i could blend this song into a super thin liquid so i could inject it into my veins and live with it and inject it again over and over.. damn.. i would definitely do it..

you might have noticed is my favorite track EVER. the whole instrument, william's vocal, everything mixed so well and it makes me want to stand and applause and cry whenever i play this song. the lyrics hurt me the most because i kind of #relate to them in a way that i couldnt explain, and that hurts so good.

small detail i love about this song is when william sing 'OOouh' before the second verse and i think that is so beautiful. i understand the rage and betrayal feelings from that song, so hearing william sang that small part made everything so much better. i could literally feel his anger by that. in conclusion, i kept nodding and agreeing to whatever william sing on that song because it feels like: this

(thank you oomf for this picture)

from almost there, i actually love classifieds. i have not hyperfixated on that song like how i did to you might have noticed, but that song is pretty much wiggling inside my brain so much i feel like im infected. i REALLY love "when you said you were falling apart / i thought you meant that you were falling apart" because GIIIIIIIIIIIIIIRRRLL ME TOOOOOOO!! YEEESS!!! it feels like I THOUGHT??? YOU??? werent you the one that is FALLING APART?? you know??? UGH!!!

i hate it because i love and i relate to it. maybe that is why i love this band. i love how a band from chicago could sing a song with lyrics that resonate the most to a 22 y.o girl who's currently unemployed and frustated about her love life. i hate how i could relate to those songs so much!! im ill!!

fast time at barrington high.. ah... it feels like im seeing an old friend that i met when i was sitting alone on the bus stop.. not really..

anyway, i love every burden has a version. the bass slaps and backhand me back to back and that feels so good, it sizzles! i also LOVE william's vocal in this because it sound so desperate to tell me something like i really need to understand his story right now. the instrumental in this song is so gooooooood. also "there's not much left inside your chest / but it's worth much more than what you see" ? HELLO? did i hear it right and when i did why does it pierce my chest over and over?

last but not least, the new album is so freaking cool and obviously i love 100mph and the world need to know that tai... made a masterpiece so good i had the hope and will to live again because the "but the world keeps turning / you're still on my mind" part is soothing to me. it reminds me to be gentle and just keep moving forward because whatever has happened to you are not going somewhere and yes it is sucks yet you will remember about it but you'll be in so much fond thinking about it.

"one hundred miles an hour" also describes my mind as well. thousands of thooousands idea running here and there and flips and backflips per one hour and it happens again. there is so much things to do!! yet im here talking about songs i love so much.

i made a mix playlist both on yt and spotify about random songs i found on shuffles, most of them are.. phc? i dont really know actually, but they sounds great and i love them. my best pick for today is Lies Animals Tell and The Better It Gets by Nova Charisma. i actually found them last june and its super good, i think they sound (vocally) a little bit similiar to Circa Survive that i love so much. i did not say that they sound exactly the same (dont put words into my mouth), but i love finding new songs that feels like my favorite because its easier for me to listen and find out more about what i really likes.

The Better It Gets actually hooked me like a fish and i love it so much. i've recommended them to my friend and im glad that she also likes it!

my journey to find good and great songs is getting better, my progress on filling up my mix playlist are doing pretty good. i also found several artist that i planned to find out more, so its been great. aside from that, i've been rewatching hannibal specifically only for season 1 and its alright.

i mean.. yeah.. everything is alright now. i dont really know either, but its okay. if you saw this post and read this until the end, please recommend me songs with the same vibes as Nova Charisma or maybe other bands that you think i'll like! i will look it up~