#did witch

Okay, I found a topic for me to talk about.

So I have DID. I’m not going to explain what that is right now, because it’s not a magically based thing and multiplicity is not unfamiliar to these communities. But I have DID. With that comes a nonmagical headspace-- as near as I can tell, a representation of all of our individual minds tied together by our singular life energy. It’s a whole planet, with planes just like the outerworld.

Now, I’ve been trying to get into astral travel. I would like to start small, in our mindspace, where we can get a grip on being in the astral while still being protected. The problem with this is, I can’t find anything on how to actually do this. I’m sure people not versed in DID would tell us that our headspace is also our mindspace, and that is just false. Our headspace is not connected to astral at all, it’s not demi-astral, we can’t add a door from there into an astral plane. It’s just fundamentally not the same sort of thing. But everything I can find was presumably written by singlets, or at least not medical plurals, and as far as I can tell for them their “headspace” and mindscape are one and the same.

I don’t have any fucking idea how to work around this. I don’t have any experienced friends in this area-- I don’t have any experienced friends period. And despite knowing of a lot of experienced people here on tumblr who are definitely skilled enough to at least point me in the right direction, I am too autistic to know if it’s appropriate to ask any of them for help. A lot of them have very big blogs and aren’t welcoming of tutoring requests without pay, and I am dirt poor. I could go on a rant about how paywalls only affect poor people and keep us uneducated and unable to access the opportunities that higher class people have but that’s not relevant to the topic.

There’s also the problem of our astral body being.... sort of big. and bright. Sort of a raging beacon of light that draws dark things like moths. And because we experience paranoid delusions, I Cannot Tell if those dark things are actual threats or just my own fears fucking with me. Again, I’m sure an experienced astral traveler could give me some good pointers on this but I don’t have anyone I can ask. So I don’t know if we even need to bother with the safety precaution of mindscape before free travel. 

There’s also the other problem of us being some kind of energy leech, but we’ve never been able to explore it and so we’re always at very very very low energy levels, physically and magically. For small spells we’re good enough at energy work to not use our own unless we have to, but astral stuff requires more. I don’t have anyone to feed off of, and because of quarantine and being high risk we don’t have the advantage of leaving the house and getting at least a little bit of a charge off ambient energy. Basically, as always with me, I have a lot of problems and no solutions.

If anyone knows good posts or articles, if you could be so kind, PLEASE point us to them. If you have experience circumventing any of these problems yourself please contact me. I’m not going to be bullied out of learning because I’m “too sick” and I’m not stupid enough to put myself in danger by winging it, so don’t just tell me to figure it out on my own. 

The bare winter of the long hiatus continues... We carry on with the gods guiding us down our path. 

So let me give those who support me an update... We have found out that we are an OSDD-1b system, meaning that there are multiple people in one body. We are trying to figure it out, but we are also trying to keep it a secret from those around us. Our System blog is @feather-system and you learn about us there. 

But, a few of the system members (aka alters) are witches still! I, Robin, am a witch, so is Zelda. So we will still be doing lots of witchy stuff! But, some of the magic we do will also be for helping systems with witches too. DID/OSDD spells, dissociation spells, abuse protection, trauma protection, that will be our focus. 

That being said, we are not ready at all to start up our practice again. We still have mental/emotional difficulties that we gotta sort out, so the chilly wind of the hiatus still blows until we gather spoons and feel well again.

Feel free to send us asks anyways because we love hearing from you all! When we’re back, we’ll kick start with a nice give-away. 

really exciting to have my own little spiritual team within me.

Our Inner World:

So many DID/OSDD systems have an “inner world” where you go when you don’t front. Not all systems have one since every system is different. Ours is not that elaborate, but the main part of the “Headspace” is a grassy field with forests on either side. We do have a house, which is pretty nice, where we sit around. 

There are other realms inside as well, where magic works a little differently. Only the Headspace really works well with the energy. 

That being said not all of the system members (alters) practice magic, are witches, etc. So, I respect people and their own beliefs as I would outside. 

Energy Magic:

Zelda practices quite a bit of Energy Magic inside. How does it work? Well see, our inner world seems to have quite a bit of energy around us that we can draw from. Since it’s inside, visualization is much easier inside since it’s not... outside. It’s not a physical world for us, so it’s much easier to imagine energy around us. 

So, barriers and wards you’re able to see them inside. Protection spells are more visual, just as you would see them on TV (not really though haha). 

As a witch who is connected with the energy around us, we feel the energy inside quite well. That being said, it might not work the same way for other systems, it really depends. 

Tarot: 

It honestly works the same as it would outside. I get a little dramatic about drawing cards and sometimes the energy just moves the card and I’m like “Alright, I’ll do it then.” That being said, I can’t really say much about it since I’m just getting back into it. 

Back in San Francisco, it would be just like it would be outside. The cards don’t move, you just go based on which one speaks to you, honestly. 

Charms: 

Zelda really likes using charms, I’ll have her talk more about it. She’s been a bit stressed so she’s been mostly putting her energy into Energy Magic and keeping everyone safe inside. 

It seems she made one charm to keep the House protected. I don’t know though... 

If anyone has any questions about the system or magic in general, feel free to drop me an ask! I’m happy to answer questions!