i love how soulless sam(until the finale of s6) is just this suppressed personality left being the wall. the second he breaks down he wants to share the headspace. not just share actually. he wants to be the only one because, well, he’s the one who can handle it. sammy will fall to bits and pieces, he believes. but soulless sam will be fine. he doesn’t have a soul, what is remembering all that Hell gonna do? soulless sam can handle it and Sam will be just fine. he will act without a soul, but he won’t be riddled with CPTSD and a million other horrible things.
i just wish they explored this a bit more. imagine DID sam. except soulless sam is lwk evil with his time. sam will go to sleep and wake up like a month later in the hospital because Dean beat the shit out of him. dean will be sitting beside him like “sammy are you back?” and when he realizes sammy is he’s all sunshine and rainbows. he takes sam out to a pancake house and goes drinking with him even though he gave sam a concussion, 4 broken ribs, and a broken femur. this is sam’s life now.
Hell-Sam sometimes slips in when things get super tough. he can take all the hits. dean will come save him and sees Sam survive getting his organs rearranged (literally. he is cut open and his organs are literally in the wrong places.) “superhuman powers” and such. Dean doesn’t mind this one that much, except that this sam doesn’t talk to him. he’s scared of dean because apparently he thinks dean is lucifer and that dean is gonna rape him with a grater. not fun.
so sam is just stuck with almost 0 control of who faces. soulless sam, if he gets out of his psyche shackles, will try and kill them all and stay surfaced for as long as possible. is he faces, Dean can’t stand sam and will beat him until he can’t move.
