#diary writings

aww how pretty <3

Just a suggestion you don't have to, but i think it's be smart to try and work somethings out.

or you could talk to Ranboo about what happen with the execution. He needs some help working through he's feelings too, but he's maybe a bit easier then talking with Phil about Him.

i get it, chat, and i know it'll help but...he killed wilbur. he stabbed my best friend—his son—in the heart. and i know the wilbur he killed wasn't the same wilbur i knew and trusted but i don't– did he have to die because of that? and i'm sure philza had his reasons and i really do want to hear them but for goodness sake i already see wilbur everywhere and i finally stopped seeing his dead body and his blood on my coat and he's finally left most of my nightmares and i don't want to go back.

i just. i don't want to look at philza and have the first thing i see be blood on his hands. i don't want to listen to philza and think about all the ways they are similar and i don't want to talk to philza and accidentally let slip that his son is still haunting my life the same way his remains haunted me all that time ago.

it'll help. i know it'll help and i know you're absolutely right but i- the day he died i abandoned everything for him, only to see his dead body slumped to the floor and his quickly cooling blood tainting the ashes of my home.

same with ranboo. i want to help him but how could i try to help him to find what he feels when i don't even know myself?

i'll try talking with ranboo when i see him again and i'll think about talking with philza but, in all honesty, i don't think philza wants to see me either—not after i failed to protect both his son and everything his son cared about.

Stay safe mate o7

favorite thing to bake would probably be a sweet berry and lemon pie. it's really simple and easy to get into (be careful with the sweet berries though, you don't want to give yourself a heart attack with the sugar contents), and you can make it instantly so pretty with a bit of sugar dusting and honey <3

this is a c!niki ask & rp blog run by @thekaycat. it will depict both canon and a bit of fanon bits, starting from the pre-execution arc. this will be run as if c!niki has a blog herself rather than a 3rd-person rp style.

companion blog to:

c!phil: @antarctic-malewife (run by @bunfloras)

c!techno: @antarctic-anarchist (run by @accursed-worm)

c!ranboo: @enderchestappreciation (run by @the-blaze-empress)

c!ghostbur: @cornflower-friend (run by @venetapsi)

c!quackity: @black-tie-beanie (also run by @accursed-worm) c!tommy: @pog-wife-haver (run by @novaliae)

asks are submitted via the diary writing (that's how chat appears to niki canonically and she also just calls them chat)! feel free to interact as much or as little as you want, whether it be with questions, media, or thoughts. please refrain from sending in anything shipping related, unless it is niki and puffy, which is confirmed to be canon. however, their relationship will probably be depicted as more of a qpr :D

feel free to repeat questions too, niki goes through. a lot of development so, for example, her relationship with characters will change a lot over time.

main tags used in interactions/posts:

#diary writings - asks

#thoughts run wild - original post

#hallucination - ooc

#anarchist pig - c!techno

#anarchist crow - c!phil

#journal buddy - c!ranboo

#him. - c!wilbur

#my beloved - c!puffy

#ducks and quackers - c!quackity

#trouble making child - c!tommy

Niki I’m so peer pressured right now that I’d rather pluck out my own eyes then look at Roger

niki I’m in too deep what do I do

i- what's happened?? are you both okay?