#dhruba

i remember how it went down. it was orientation day, my first day of school. i was really really early, and as the room was filling up, in came dhruba, being a little late (explains so much now lol), in his blue plaid shirt. i noticed him (along with other irrelevent people) and thought he was pretty cute but didn't think much of it at the time. lunch time came, and i ditched the girl beside me because i just couldn't see myself holding an intellectual conversation with her if i'm honest. i was trying to look for the cafeteria, and i got lost, i ended up outside of school and then turned back feeling nervous. i somehow managed to find my way back to the cafeteria and was just trying to find a place to sit or to make at least one friend that day. i spotted dhruba, again, and feeling like i had nothing to lose i asked, "is this seat taken?" as i sat down across from him. he was a lot cuter up close not gonna lie lol. but we talked and i guess it was awkward at first, but what interaction on the first day isn't? when we talked a bit more it was very clear that he & i were going to be great friends. i don't know what it was, but i just knew that we were going to get along. i just didn't know we'd end up wanting to be in each other's lives for forever. gosh, he was so cool in the way he carried himself, and being the loser i was, i just wanted to make him laugh, so i kept cracking up stupid jokes during the tour of the library, and i remember always looking back to see if he'd laugh. it was so embarrassing. 

thinking about it now, it's so insane how this one little thing led to so many others. i can't even imagine how boring and bleak my time in malaysia would have been if i had never met him. i don't think he knows how much of an impact he's made in my life. when i started hanging out with him more even before we were together as a couple, i started liking malaysia more and i was less resentful that i had came. he took me to my first rave concert thing whatever, and it was pretty rad. he took me on my first roadtrip on my own. he made me smile wider, laugh harder, appreciate the little things, made me happy.