#dft

Rest of the prompt doodles (and character designs) from April!

diving back into my physics girl era- cracked open the notes tonight for some dft basics and a quantum mechanics refresher—turns out, my brain still lights up for eigenfunctions and electron densities.

I moved finally it was hectic to say the least and now after like 5 days I think I'm settling in a little but man the humidity is killing me. I stayed the past 4 days for atleast a few hours in the lab which is a huge improvement but since I don't have the stamina to sit that long I get very tired when I get back to my room. I also need to study for the the exam which is in few months and aaa I don't feel very confident right now about anything. Tomorrow the week starts after a long holiday break and it will be very crowded and the other lab people will also come back and I don't work well when I get overstimulated so I'm scared that I will lose the momentum I have managed to keep till now. I will also meet my professor tomorrow for the first time aside from a few emails and messages, he doesn't even know how I look. I haven't read all the papers that I was supposed to but I think that's alright I still have to pick my specific project and I don't know if I am ready for the kind of research freedom that comes with this. What if I choose something right now and end up too stupid to make any progress in it? The prof said I can choose what I want to work and take my time to make myself familiar with everything, he seems chill but I don't want to take advantage of that as I did for my ms thesis which ended up badly. The one labmate which is the only one I've met till now is cool and pretty helpful which is nice ig but my introvert tendencies come out cause I don't want to spend all my time awake with other people, I need my alone time to roam around too. I hope the dynamic changes. I sound so bratty right now but I really don't want to be overstimulated cause it messes the whole day and night away and I have work that needs to be done. I also wish I can make proper friends here to just sit with them without it being acquaintances from the lab. It was very deserted in college till today but now the students are coming back and the shops are opening up and it's getting fuller on the streets too which is nice in the evening. I have started smoking again but like 3 atmost in a day which is fine and it doesn't really make me sick, but I only smoke after 5pm. My compulsive thoughts are still there but I can distract myself a little right now to not think too much about them, I still get bouts of anger that I just have to ride out but it's still much better than last month. I have my own desktop so I have two screens I can work with. I think I'll try to complete this one paper and read the summaries of the other on surface so I don't make a fool of myself tomorrow.

Came home and didn't even wash my hands for 4 hours(ew)

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someone help them out they've been in there for like two months at least </3