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Character Breakdown | Open

@dezimaton asked: :3c for char breakdown meme: rosso (FF7) ?

THANK YOU FOR ASKING, because my feelings for this character has grown and shifted over the years!

-How I feel about this character- See, when I first started playing the game, she was cool and interesting, but was a bad guy against Vincent and that's about as far as my brain went. She was just a blood-loving psycho to me, and I could never decide if her accent was cheesy or enjoyable.

Now? I adore her? Like I do most the Tsviets, or at least what I like to see as the original three (I don't actually know the timeline, my I like to see Weiss and Nero as the top dogs and Rosso being the closest to their level, with respect). But idk, its come from some roleplays, and replays, and story analysis, but also fully letting it sit in (which applies to all Deepground characters) that yes she's crazy and enjoys battle and spilling blood, but why wouldn't she? Brought up and trained and tortured as she was? But I fucking love her. She's beautiful. She's badass. She has her own weird form of honor, and I thoroughly enjoy her.

-All the people I ship romantically with this character- I've never really thought of shipping, to be honest, that much for her! Only shipping I've managed to imagine is, by roleplay randomness, my failed-tsviet OC being deeply, sapphicly dependent and obsessed/in love with her and Rosso having her own affection in return. Absolutely toxic, but in a devoted way? XD

Beyond that, like I said, I haven't really thought about it! But since the OC shipping, I'm now inclined to see her as more a woman's woman, so perhaps I'd consider other female characters, if any could handle her lol.

-My non-romantic OTP for this character- Absolutely headcanon, but I like to imagine her and Nero have their own version of friendship...? They are very loyal, Nero holds absolutely loyalty to Weiss of course above all others. But I like to imagine he looks at Rosso as one of the few people at least managing to stand with them. And Rosso feels the same, she puts them both, especially Weiss, on a pedestal of greatness in their torture-born culture. Nero is right there beside him, but for different reasons. She would do just about anything for them. She is fond, to a degree, of the other Tsviets, but beyond that, she just sees the world as things to taunt, challenge, defeat, and/or kill, and she's eager to do it.

Again, of course, in scenarios paired with my OC, I imagine her as protective and possessive and waiting to lead her into their world. Might protect her from what she deems unnecessary, and will otherwise support her and push her through everything else.

-My unpopular opinion about this character- I don't have many opinions about her? Much less do I have enough experience thinking about her and exploring her to know what would be an unpopular opinion. Other than maybe she should almost be on par with popularity and fanart and attention as Weiss and Nero. Maybe not AT the same level lol, but, still. She's enjoyable.

-One thing I wish would happen / had happened with this character in canon.- I think the only things I'd want for her going forward, kind of applies to the other Tsviets as well. I want more screen time and with that or in that, I want more exploration of the characters. The Tsviets and Deepground are such a sad, enthralling batch of characters! Are they blood thirsty and dangerous? Technically, yes! Could they be classified on some spectrum of psychosis? I'm not a professionly, but probably! Is that their fault? HELL NO. You raised someone to bite or be bitten for most their life, they're gonna become a biter.

i’ll bet masi makes a very cute white dragon. kind of spiky and cold but still a cute dragon <3 <3 <3

the bonus solcest drabble to the ask i submitted earlier, with double bonus artwork by @dezimaton (submitted with permission!)

Sickfic Prompts | Open

@dezimaton asked: sickfic prompts: [🤲 - Vincent - Cloud] please!

NOW WITH LOVELY ACCOMPANYING ART, by @dezimaton !!

The pain of existing wasn't anything new to Vincent. Truthfully, it was a constant companion for years. Though he was learning to accept other companions beyond it, it changed nothing about it's presence.

Nothing but the attention it brought, apparently.

As Vincent had just woken up from the bed he'd been sharing with Cloud for some time now, something that had taken time to become this comfortable with to the point of resting bear chested, he failed to stop the faintest sigh of discomfort from slipping past his lips.

"Vince...? What is it?" came the drowsy voice behind him, a voice he was blessed every morning to hear so close and intimate.

Vincent shook his head, though rolling his shoulder, back to the blond. "Nothing, just stretching... Sleep, if you still can." he encouraged, looking back over his left shoulder he'd just rolled, but the blue eyes watching him didn't seem to be taking his reassurance whatsoever.

Instead, Cloud gave a faint stretch himself, and began to sit up. "Do I gotta ask again?"

Vincent narrowed his gaze, however fondly, and sighed again, clearer then.

"Nothing but every day body aches." he assured him. "I deal with them all the time."

"Where does it ache?" Cloud yawned, scooting to Vincent's side of the bed with no intent of letting up. Vincent caught his gaze again.

"Is there a reason for the inquiry?" he countered, his way of briefly avoiding answering.

"Is there a reason you're trying to deter me with your own 'inquiry'?" he countered, quirked his head with a few strands of blond trying to fall into those blue eyes. "Is it something I can help with a massage?"

"Cloud, you don't need--"

"Answer the question, Valentine."

Vincent tightened his lips, holding back a sigh, as well as a chuckle. Sometimes he didn't enjoy how the others stubbornness clashed with his own, but in moments like these, his endearment could only deepen. "...It might. I'm not sure. I never massage it."

"Where?"

He glanced down at his left shoulder. "...Around the shoulder...it tends to ache around the deformed flesh and altered muscle. It's just the norm, with this arm."

Cloud scooted up behind him then, reaching a hand to teasingly but fondly turn his face away. He sat close to his back, and moved one hand to apply pressure and bit of stability to his front, as the other hand began to work the muscle of his shoulder, and around it, all around the discolored flesh and the muscle underneath. And as he started to work, Vincent found himself fighting the moan of relief his efforts were already bringing. There was another ache, but one he knew meant he was working out some abnormal tension. Cloud continued up and around, even using the hand around the front of his shoulder and over his upper chest to massage there a little bit.

Vincent felt himself easing more and more, and sighed, dropping his head a bit. "Th-that...seems to be helping."

There was the faintest huff of amusement behind him. "You know, you'd have less tension if you stopped holding back. Relax, Vincent..." the demand was given gently, the hand on his chest giving a faint caress before continuing working around his shoulder, up and down, and deeper when finally he heard Vincent's soft moan of relief.

His clawed fingers twitched now and again, feeling the tension release, tingling down through his limb more and more. "Didn't know how good you were at this..."

"Maybe you should've asked sooner." Cloud remarked, leaning forward then and laying a kiss on the rough skin of Vincent's bicep, causing the other to look at him with tender eyes. "You don't have to keep putting up with everything by yourself."

"...You're one to talk."

A-Z Ask Meme | Open

@dezimaton asked: A-Z ask meme: O(adapted) because I'd like to hand you the song: [Gone Angels, Library of Ruina], U, X please!

Thank you! Also, I love that song you suggested, it's got an interesting vibe!

O - Choose a song at random. Which ship or character does it remind you of? This may be too obvious, but just listening to that song and reading over the lyrics, my vibe was just...Sephiroth, and then specifically Sephesis. Like, it felt like a flavor of Sephesis during their separation, during the defection--it's like they're in the middle of a dance, dealing with the loss, the betrayal, the separation, the confusion, the devastation of information, and then just the reality of the dark lies crashing down on them. It's as if they want to go back, yet they know they're stumbling forward. They want to hold close, yet they want to just toss each other away. Just, their dance.

U - Three favorite characters from three different fandoms, and why they’re your favorites. Not sure if this was three period, one from each fandom OR three each, three from one fandom each, so I'm going with the first lol. With FF7, it's always been Vincent Valentine. It started superficially because of just, aesthetics and primarily because his english VA in AC being a VA I was following somewhat at the time. But the love for him has just grown heavier and heavier through the years. Dirge was the first FF game I ever got, and ever beat, too. And it's the one I've replayed the most. I just adore his character, in ways that it'd take me too long to list out lol. Best way to summarize is just...his vibe from the inside in, the tragedy, the spooky intelligent badass vibes, his heart, his pain, his dark humor, just, all of it. Uuummm...trying to decide other fandoms to choose, though. I'll be honest, the top two other fandoms that have circled the back of my mind while my focus has been on FF7, feel free to judge, have been Marvel and BNHA/MHA. Though, Marvel I'm fairly disconnected from most new media and really only care for my choice of its classic MCU days. But, with Marvel, Loki was my top favorite. I was obsessed, he was my first character muse I RP'd as, and my time writing as him and investing in the content made of him was very impactful (I don't really follow anything made from Ragnarok on, that's just me, no judgment to those that do enjoy). But his story is fucked up, too, and though it may go over some peoples heads, he did try, he was something more than just a petty, mischievous jerk (he really wasn't petty or jealous to the degree people make him out to be, he was the more balanced 'Odinson' before he went too far doing something that NEEDED to be done, and it led to a devastating truth). I could go on way too long about Loki, so, I'll just leave it there XD With MHA, it's Bakugo. Again, feel free to judge. I'm aware he is an asshole and was very much a bully and needs to be held accountable for that, and I will never excuse his roof-dive comment towards Deku. But I'm of the mind that, for one he's a teenager than can learn and has learned and is still learning from his faults. For two, he can be an ass but that is technically how he's learned to communicate and if people get to know them they realize it's just him being loud and rough to express his critiques, advice, compliments, etc. But most of all, it's his character complexity and growth. I adore him, and I'm not going to apologize for that.

Absolutely gorgeous art by @dezimaton, uploaded on my blog with their permission! This is an accompanying piece, cover art, for my fanfiction entry for @vincentvalentineweek !! Entry found here.