" You blink and he's an entirely different person. The air feels so still as he looks at you, you can hardly suck in a ragged breath. He'd make sure you've wiped the tears from your eyes and that your sniffling is kept to a minimum before he says softly, "Do not ever say that again. We are never divorcing." " #BRICKEDDDDDD OH LORD.
You know he's got his hand around the back of your neck or your chin between his thumb and forefinger, because he was so close "comforting" you already, and is making you look him in the eye as he says that. When you don't immediately respond, still so thrown by the whiplash, he just..prompts you.
"Okay?" Do you understand?
And you maybe nod and sniffle but he pushes for that verbal confirmation. And you give it. And its scary because this is not the Jack you know. The Jack you know has always tried to impress you, attract you, annoy you, adore you to an alarming (read: controlling) degree, but this is the first time you see it as terrifying as it is and laid out plainly. No ifs ands or buts.
Also I love that it seems like defenseman!Reader & forward!Reader adapt the easiest to their circumstances kinda... There's still the element of being #trapped and days that are worse than others but having been teammates with these guys helps them be practiced for the delusion/cope easier I think.
that is the last time you ever use the word divorce around him 😊
+ I almost had him say, “Do you understand me?” but I’m glad we both agree that’s the thing he wouldn’t say out loud. He doesn’t need to. You know him. You know what he means
+ Jack definitely has your chin between his forefinger and thumb and steadies you so you’re looking directly at him. He brings his other hand up, patiently dabbing at the tears uselessly dripping down your cheeks until you calm down to his liking. The look on his face is so unfamiliar. This isn’t the Jack you know. This isn’t a Jack you know
(Once you agree verbally, he stretches out his sleeve until it covers his hand and tells you to blow your nose.)
+ I think dman!reader and forward!reader have the easiest time adapting because they are players. They’re used to ceding things for the bigger picture. In some ways, some conclusions are foretold long before in sports and for them, ending up with these guys feels inevitable. The web tangled around them is nearly impossible to escape and they may find themselves in a worse place after escaping than just remaining. Some things you just have to accept
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bfb!reader i don't think would ever mention it. everyone would have her head and she's fully aware of that, realized it at her wedding. but defenseman!reader.... she knows she can't leave him. but she can threaten divorce a few times when he mildly inconveniences her. deadpan and everything. she thinks its funny until it becomes more trouble than its worth coaxing him out of his moods that she sent him into. it was a joke. she's still here isn't she?
i feel like any reader with jack knows better....devsmin!au reader mentions it ONCE while sobbing about something or other and its geniunely a scary reaction. like a flipped switch from him trying to comfort (read: smother) her to...this. her hurt feelings that caused her to blubber out such nonsense mean nothing in that moment. don't you ever say that shit again.
forward!reader doesn't even threaten jack with it, she's talking about a friend of hers getting a messy divorce on their way home from dinner and not noticing he's stiff/faux relaxed until he goes like. ...but you don't like think thats an option, right? and you're like uh in her situation DEFINITELY. were you not listening to what i just fucking said? her ex husband is like. cartoonishly evil. and jack is just thin-lipped and looks like the food from the restaurant gave him food poisioning. and you're like. geniunely shocked he isn't saying anything, going: would YOU stay married after that? if i did this and that and this to you? and he's like i would never divorce you. and you're like. ohhhhh. he's stupid. okay well i'm not talking about us am i? 🙄 and he's like okay. good. 😐 and its just like damn. i think i need to let him go down on me or smth to calm him down.
if they could somehow erase the word divorce from your vocabulary, trust they would
+ bfb!reader knows she wouldn't be supported in the slightest if she were to try divorcing Quinn. It's implied but she's extremely close to her family so there is no universe where she is willing to give them up to get rid of Quinn. Besides, let's say a divorce did happen through some miracle (the miracle? Quinn wanting to prove to her that no matter what she does to get rid of him, he will always be around) Her family would still be inviting Quinn around as they always have so it's a null point
+ dman!reader knows what the public perception will be if she divorces Quinn. And in this situation, Quinn would make sure it is as nasty of a process as possible if she were to try. It's such an out of reach thing that she doesn't feel bad when she threatens to divorce him over mild inconveniences. (She doesn't dare to do it when they do have major arguments. It would be that touch too far that would send Quinn into lockdown mode.) Unfortunately, like you said, it becomes more trouble than its worth early on and she stops using it as the butt of a joke
(She does wistfully read about other women who have left their controlling partners sometimes)
+ I'm sorry Jack in every universe I've ever written is not the one to be bringing up a divorce to. He'd let you finish your sentence and then tell you no. And that's the end of the conversation
+ devsmin!au goes exactly as you said. He goes from comforting to cold in a matter of seconds. You blink and he's an entirely different person. The air feels so still as he looks at you, you can hardly suck in a ragged breath. He'd make sure you've wiped the tears from your eyes and that your sniffling is kept to a minimum before he says softly, "Do not ever say that again. We are never divorcing."
+ The situation in forward!au is killing me. You know divorce is not in your cards. Jack's proven to you what he's willing to do to keep you so why make yourself miserable hoping for something that will never come? So you are genuinely just relaying your friend's situation to Jack because you know, he's your partner and it's a normal thing to bring up 😭 I'm ctfu at him saying I would never divorce you in response to you asking him if he'd stay with you if you were to do terrible, awful things to him. You're genuinely like ??? You would stay? And he keeps doubling down like oh my god. You're talking about a hypothetical situation where you've ruined him mentally and put him through shit no one should ever be put through, especially by someone that claims to love them and he's too focused on you using the word divorce devoid of the context. Jesus. Can someone bring you a drink?
+ You having to follow up and say well I'm not talking about us LASDKFASDALDSJFK and him being petulant about it I'm cryinggg what the fuck is his problem <- we all know what it is 😭
+ 'i think i need to let him go down on me or smth to calm him down.' LOUD BUZZER SOUND. You can't walk the next morning and you can't say it was worth it because of all the things Jack made you promise the night before. And with your orgasm just out of reach, you were saying anythinggg. And Jack's the type to hold you to your promises even when they're made under duress....
the thing about devsmin!au and bff!au respectively is like....reader being bffs with quinn and jack obsessed with her & reader being bffs with jack and quinn obsessed with her, what's so appealing (to me) is that you have this guy who geniunely cares about you and could be your other half! but the romantic feelings just are not there. it probably wouldn't work half as well if they were! it's definitely an idealization but...we are playing with dolls ✋️ hold my hand while we craft.
and nowwww there's his weird fucking brother here to swoop in for that part. which you tolerate. because you're NOT losing what is basically the equivalent to a platonic soulmate. like? the tension that is derived from this weird mishmash of complicated feelings is too delectable. like putting up with all this nonsense for the brother that DOESN'T want you #LikeThat is soooo tragic. you win some, you lose some (big time)
the differences are also delicious. devsmin!reader's quinn is 100% enabling the relationship between jack and reader once it starts, but their friendship is also relatively normal appearing from the outside, except for those handful of moments where lines were crossed that aren't normally (quinn and you losing your virginity to each other/first kiss, q ratting on you crying about how weirdly clingy jack is being so he can adjust his strat, letting jack kiss you at the olympics despite knowing damn well you weren't together and subsequently going with the gf thing, him ignoring your wedding cold feet and gently guiding you to marrying jack despite being fully aware you're freaking tf out, sending jack up to comfort you instead of doing it himself when you want quinn...) jack is just insanely possessive and has the most hang-ups about how close you two are.
in bff!au though? jack and the reader are also fucking weirdos, just in a different way than quinn will soon be. i think its just a consequence of being bff's with someone as outwardly intense and outgoing as jack unforch. like they are fully #Codependent and are fine with that! they probably even discussed dating once and were like. ew yknow what. i'm good (jack 1000% still threw a fit when you got your first boyfriend and/or lost your virginity. before he was like. wait why tf do i care. we're not examining that (you both figured out it was attention-based. like he just wants your attention and doesn't want to lose it to someone else, sorryyyyy for being acclimated to a certain way of life. as if its my fault). there's a confidence in yalls friendship that doesn't need outside validation...but said codependency does lead to reader trying to fill the physical/emotional void living away from him, because it got real intense in jersey. and now its gone. enter q.
i think after that drabble you posted, where she asks if her and jack are too close, reader might just double down more on how she's treating quinn and jack as normal. the delusion is necessary to maintaining her worldview. this is her downfall ofc but i digress.
("would you fuck me, if you had the chance?" asked over one of those stupid card games meant for a bunch of 20 somethings to play over beers. you roll your eyes that you picked that basic ass card. jack would make some joke if he were here, make a face, but quinn gets this heavy hooded look in his eyes and absolutely brings it up again when the two of you are alone. red alert girl! THIS CANNOT BE YOUR JACK 2!)
anyways. i think reader is more...confident to tell jack something is wrong in bff!au. vs reader in devsmin!au being fully aware of how she cannot bring up jack being a freak to her to q cause that's his baby brother. hear me out! those wouldn't be the words that come out, of course. she's codependent, not stupid. she knows those boys are #Complicated. but she wouldn't cut corners either. when jack finds out about their relationship (every time reader wanted to tell him she felt SICK like physically ILL so. either quinn does it or its at the lakehouse) its just like [obviously irritated] listen. i love you. you know that. but why didn't you tell me?????? what the fuck??? we don't keep secrets??? you literally said you would tell me if this happened?? HELLOOOO?
she'd just shrug and look away and well, quinn said we were dating and then we just...were and she can't really meet his eyes now and shrugs helplessly. and jack feels his chest do something complicated because that doesn't sound...normal (what would you know about that jack. just btw). but he tempers that knee jerk reaction because what does he know? it's quinn. he'd never hurt you. like. it's quinn. his big brother quinn....like it's quinn. <- his only defense in this scenario. it WILL be doing the heavy lifting. successfully.
but he can't get the look in your eyes out of his mind. it makes his palms sweaty if he thinks about it too much and his stomach hurt. so he won't think about it. and just like he ignored the emotions from your impending move from jersey until he couldn't, he'll do the same here.
by the wedding, he'll have made his peace with it. after all, you're a hughes now. what could be better than that?
omg this is such a thoughtful breakdown that perfectly encapsulates what makes each au so distinct from each other 🥲🤍
+ We are always playing with dolls here and I'm making ours kiss 😚 And I agree! I really enjoy the duality of having a friend that's your platonic soulmate (one where it's a healthy relationship vs one where it's crept into unhealthy territory) and their brother who is obsessed with you (one where he's outwardly pretty odd about you and one where he is a little weird but harmless in your eyes for the most part bc you simply see him as an extension of his brother)
+ 'like putting up with all this nonsense for the brother that DOESN'T want you #LikeThat is soooo tragic' and it's suchhh a complicated thing because you love Jack/Quinn sooo much, truly from the very bottom of your heart, but you can't have them without having their brother along for the ride so you'll swallow whatever discomfort their brothers bring you for the sake of your friendship #TrueLove and all that
+ devsmin!reader and Quinn have a mostly normal friendship. They’re not codependent in the way bff!reader and Jack are. And the difference is that Quinn loves Jack more than he’s ever loved Reader. He’s willing to ruin Reader’s life for Jack’s happiness.
+ I love how you bring up Quinn's enabling of Jack's behavior. On the surface, the things Reader sees (letting Jack buy her tickets to the Olympics, going along with the gf thing, sending Jack to comfort you etc) are things she can talk herself into thinking as Quinn being oblivious because of his rose-colored glasses when it comes to Jack. She trusts Quinn so much (as seen by her asking Quinn to 'take' her virginity. She wanted someone that loved and cared for her as much as she loved and cared for them to have her first time with and of course Quinn fits that bill perfectly) it wouldn't cross her mind ever that he had a hand in pushing her into Jack's arms
+ bff!reader and Jack are crazily codependent. There’s a theory that for the first five months (at least the first few months), babies think they’re an extension of their mom. And that’s the best way to put how their friendship operates. They have known each other for SO long and have seen each other through everything. But what made their codependency what it is are those years in NY/NJ together especially Jack's rookie year. She was his rock that year and they practically melded together. And they don't see a problem with it either!
+ The characterization I derive for Jack is one where he’s used to the being the favorite. It makes him self-centered for a lack of a better word. So it’s a chip on his shoulder in the devsmin!au that she’s Quinn’s first in a way. She may never see Quinn romantically but Jack will always have some sort of hang-up about the dynamic she has with Quinn. Part of him is also like well why wouldn’t she be in love with Quinn after all these years? Quinn’s the greatest guy around. So there’s also this weird little brotherism there too playing into it lol
+ In bff!au, this manifests in him feeling off kilter that his favorite people may get together and where does that leave him? He’s never had to share either of them in this way. But at the same time, it’s his favorite people getting together and he knows Quinn will be a great partner and vice versa so his hackles aren’t raised nearly as much about the situation
+ Obsessed with your entire breakdown of bff!reader and Jack's relationship and particularly this part -> (jack 1000% still threw a fit when you got your first boyfriend and/or lost your virginity. before he was like. wait why tf do i care. we're not examining that (you both figured out it was attention-based. like he just wants your attention and doesn't want to lose it to someone else, sorryyyyy for being acclimated to a certain way of life. as if its my fault)) because that's the crux of it right? It's not that Jack wants to be your boyfriend or the person you lose your virginity to (he would do the latter if you asked ofc) but it bothers him that you're sharing experiences with people that aren't him. You were his first you know? You always have been. You always will be. It's how your friendship has functioned since its inception and it's hard to deal with things that challenge that basis. And just like you said, you guys don't need the outside validation but Quinn coming in adds a stressor where you start to wonder if there is something off about you and Jack despite how it seems to work for you guys
+ And absolutely you're doubling down after that talk with Quinn in the drabble. I was hoping to portray your messy inner reflections and how you won't let yourself form a complete thought on the situation because it would force you to confront things you aren't ready to accept. This then leads to your conclusion that you need to seek out people that understand this is how Jack and you are vs changing what you and Jack are #yourworldview
+ ("would you fuck me, if you had the chance?" asked over one of those stupid card games meant for a bunch of 20 somethings to play over beers. you roll your eyes that you picked that basic ass card. jack would make some joke if he were here, make a face, but quinn gets this heavy hooded look in his eyes and absolutely brings it up again when the two of you are alone. red alert girl! THIS CANNOT BE YOUR JACK 2!) <- loveeeeee this so much. You're so used to treating Quinn as Jack, you expect him to react as Jack would (a scoff or sarcastic obviouslyyy) so when you don't hear anything, you look up and are met with a look that shouldn't be as thoughtful as it is
+ Omg you are soooo right that bff!reader wouldn't be the one to tell Jack about her and Quinn. She wouldn't be able to find the words. If she tells him the truth, she believes she risks rocking some foundational truths Jack holds about his older brother but at the same time, Jack knows her. He knows she'll be holding back so it's easier to let Quinn tell him
+ Jack prefacing his lecture with 'I love you. You know that.' my friendssss I love them 🫂😭 Initially, he'd be upset at her keeping such a huge secret from him but the longer he sits on it, the more it bothers him. She isn't the type to keep any secret from him. It took her a few days to tell him she hooked up with Z but she did tell him with a queasy looking expression on her face. Her reaction when trying to explain also sets off those alarm bells like you said but he can't let himself consider why. It's Quinn. Quinn would never do anything untoward towards you. '<- his only defense in this scenario. it WILL be doing the heavy lifting. successfully.' Exactly!!!
+ 'so he won't think about it. and just like he ignored the emotions from your impending move from jersey until he couldn't, he'll do the same here.' <- There's a futility to it as well he's not acknowledging but he knows deep down. The truth of the matter is nothing will be done even if he is to find out Quinn did something to you. That knowledge won't save you. It won't save him either. The both of you will just have to exist with it
+ Once you're a Hughes, what does it matter then? You and Jack can continue you as you are and Quinn will be happy. It's the best ending any of you can get
https://www.tumblr.com/quinnboni/818886885195874304/feel-free-to-ignore-if-this-is-not-anything-that?source=share the tags on this post are haunting me cause imagine j does babytrap you in devsmin!au.
you're fucking hysterical when you call quinn. you've taken like, five pregnancy tests and they're all positive. what the fuck do you do? what the fuck? A BABY? WITH JACK????? but hey. that's your best friend. of course you called him before you called your husband <- THESE PEOPLE ARE SO MESSYYYYYY. calling your bff (your husband's BROTHER) that you're pregnant with his kid before you tell jack (THE FATHER) without even thinking how badly that is going to fuck jack up if he finds out. which he won't. but oh my god. BYEEEEEEE.
The moment you read those positive signs, your fingers are already tapping on your most trusted contact asdlfjkalsdf
+ It takes Quinn a full minute to understand what you're saying to him because he's also thinking a baby with Jack? His little brother Jack? A baby Jack? And then it hits him that you're also having a baby. With his brother Jack. The baby is his best friend's and his little brother's. What the fuck is his life.
+ When he realizes you told him first, he is internally sooooo smug like yeah that's Jack's baby but you still need Quinn but outwardly, he's reassuring you that everything is going to be fine and you guys are going to be great and that Jack is going to be ecstatic once he finds out. Because you are planning on telling Jack next...right?
+ 'calling your bff (your husband's BROTHER) that you're pregnant with his kid before you tell jack (THE FATHER)' this is making me laugh so much akdsfjasdf (THE FATHER) is so 😭 whew. My messy friends!
+ You and Quinn intrinsically understand that this can never reach Jack's ears. He can never ever find out no matter how mad you and Quinn are at Jack for whatever reason. This stays between you two...now start working on your lying faces bc if Jack smells blood in the water, you know he'll investigate
okay i just saw a bunch of really super duper cute wedding films so unfortunately i have to go sicko mode here.
bfb!reader enduring the lovingly told-you-so tone of chelsea's speech (she brings up asking when quinn was proposing before they were even together. everyone laughs), the fucking finally fondness of nasir's speech, and so on and so forth with the sinking realization (with a glance at quinn, his arm draped over the back of her chair) that this had been decided for her way, way before she could have realized. sooner than she thought even once the saw trap struck. there wasn't ever an option of getting out once he got her. it just keeps getting worse. she needs another drink.
devsmin!reader who keeps tearing up and sniffling the whole night and how everyone coos and awws over how emotional the bride is, including her now-husband. she someone manages to hold it together until quinn's speech about how much he cares about her and jack both, his best friend and his brother, because thats when it really hits this is the rest of her life.
dman!reader grinning and bearing it as the fifth person of the night at the reception, boldened by alcohol or maybe not, tells her that they're so surprised by how fast you guys moved once you went public. public, and then married the next summer....quinn didn't waste any time! and her having to choke out. well when you know, you know, right?
forward!reader having a panic attack and going out to get some air. it's not long until someone comes looking for her. of course it's jack. of course it's fucking jack. just like that night where he first wanted to prove it to her -- which he mentioned in their vows. and the fights, that fucking weasel. and when he pries her hands away from her face, she manages out some pitiful excuse about there being so many people. he's willing to believe it. teases you about this being too many, but a stadium of people watching you both skate around for a puck isn't too much? the fondness in his gaze makes you want to vomit.
it's never unfortunate for me when you go sicko mode <333
+ bfb!reader has to smile through it all as all of her loved ones (and Quinn's as well) lovingly tease them for taking sooo long to get it together. Quinn is playing with your dress as he listens. He manages to look (good-naturedly) embarrassed as they rag on you guys but you've known him for so long, you can read the smugness in his smile at how playfully relieved everyone is. You'll never be able to divorce him, you realize. It's not as if you were consciously planning on it but so as long as Quinn doesn't want a divorce, you're bound by your vows.
(This is the moment you start asking for hard liquor.)
+ devmins!reader crying the most you've ever cried in your life on your wedding night. And this is saying a lot considering how much of a crybaby you've been and will always be. Jack's constantly wiping your tears, laughing as he does. His smile is the biggest you've ever seen it and even his eyes get watery periodically throughout the night. The both of you are wiping at your eyes when Quinn gets up to give his speech. He's so lucky to know the both of you and to know that the people he cares most in this world (Lukey too!) love each other because it means he won't have to worry as much :) You're hiccuping by the end of his speech because of course he won't have to worry. He's locked your cage himself
+ dman!reader running your love story over and over again all night because everyone is just so shocked at how quickly the wedding happened. No one believes you when you say you and Quinn weren't dating long before the announcement (and with how murky that timeline is, you don't blame them). Quinn takes this moment to swoop in and wrap his arm around you. His tie's loosened and his eyes are glazed from all the drinks but he's cognizant enough to catch that last bit from the guest. Well, when you know, you know, he says with a too wide grin. The hand curled over your waist feels more like a shackle
+ forward!reader playing with your wedding band because wow, the engagement ring was one thing but now you are officially a wife. To Jack Hughes. It's a dream, you repeat to yourself. Jack finds you before your mind decides to finish that thought with 'to be married to a guy like Jack' or 'and you'll wake up and none of this will be real'. Except the man standing in front of you is very, very real and the way he pries your hands off your face—you don't want to ruin your makeup, baby—is so fucking real, your intake of breath is so jagged, his smile falters for a moment. Just feeling overwhelmed, you know? And his smile reappears though it's a bit more teasing this time around. Who knew love would make you so shy? he wonders aloud
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https://www.tumblr.com/quinnboni/818331703848452096/the-financial-aspectyou-start-spiraling-over?source=share when jack says he'll do your student loan payments and pays off the whole thing in one fell swoop......its so over. FUUUUUCK.
it’s literally never been so over bc obviously he’s not gonna let you pay him back. not with money at least :)
The financial aspect....you start spiraling over paying your student loans cause you can't find a job after getting let go in devsmin!au and you're crying and he's just holding you and rubbing your back going, "baby, baby, shh, it's okay. i can pay them, okay? you don't have to worry about it. it's okay" and you want to protest but you're crying too hard and god you're gonna default on them soon, it's gonna affect your credit if you wait any longer...
You're crying so hard you're hiccuping and he's actually a little freaked out because in all the years he's known you, he's never seen you this devastated. He keeps reassuring you that he'll pay them but all that's running through your mind is how that will be a temporary solution bc ofc you're going to pay him back and while this would give you breathing room, you're just switching from one debt collector to another...
"The class jump being its own horror story" you guys get it you guys understand you get iiiiiit. It's a crazy fucking feeling to interact with people who have completely different ideas of wealth and financials than you (what's the arrested development thing... "it's a banana michael whats it cost, 10 dollars??" type schism)
devsmin!au is especially terrifying cause of all the reasons explored but especially the financial aspect once you lose your job. like one time i was between paychecks and locked my keys in my car & had to ask a friend if i could borrow the fee for the locksmith. paid them back as soon as i got paid, but i'm just thinking of a poor devsmin!reader...the first time after you don't have a steady income, geniunely are so humbled in the worst way possible and are like... texting jack and being like can i borrow like a 120 bucks i locked my keys in my car. i WILL pay you back (<- has no job) i'm sorry. i'm sorry. (you highly debated just texting quinn but you're trying not to cry in the parking lot rn)
arrested development is a no notes show (except for the reunion season aslkf) like that banana scene mirroring Bill Gates guessing grocery prices 8 years later...whew. It's a whole different world talking to people like that
+ !!! Exactly!! You're already living with Jack and he covers everything but eventually—obviously—your savings will dry up the longer you're unemployed. And when you lock your keys in your car and have to call for help and find out it's $120...it really feels like your world is ending. It was a preventable thing and you're not even out $120 bc you don't have the $120 to pay it and you're trying not to lose it. Jack's almost easier to ask so you text him first (<- he's smiling through it all, he can't believe this is his lifeeee) and he ignores all of your promises to pay him back and sends you the money immediately. Then he's calling and telling you he'll be there in twenty minutes so you don't have to be alone while you wait, okay? He'll be right there
