#devistated

Good. God.

Another scene I gotta talk about.

Or more specifically, the focus on these two. Jane and Richie.

I knew... I KNEW Cynthia would get Richie's jacket. First episode he does state that "if they pull this off, you can have mine." And in the promo pictures that popped up, you could see the familiar red interior.

I may be an unpopular opinion here but..

When Cynthia walked in wearing his jacket, I couldn't help but clock Jane's reaction. She recognizes it. And the hurt that she banks back I will applaud her for... But Nancy and I are on the same page.

Take. That. Off.

NOW.

Its not that Cynthia couldn't be a T-Bird, or the fact that she got a T-Bird jacket in general. Its just that..

That's not your jacket. It can't be. That's Richie's jacket.

If Cynthia had been welcomed in, through Richie's instructions in the letters he managed to leave with the Birds, and given her OWN jacket, I probably wouldn't have shaken my head through the whole scene where the Ladies see Cynthia for the first time in sewing class. And the way she flicked the jacket, just like Richie did.. or used to.. Nope. Stop.

And Jane talking to Buddy who goes to say that if he hadn't acted like he did, that if he had come clean, she and him would be together and she returns that with.. "Maybe. But then I wouldn't have the Pink Ladies. Or... Richie." And her smile... Something about it and the way she says his name always makes me wanna hug her...

Fast forward to when the whole gang gets the the Valdovinos household..

Olivia being surprised that Jane didn't know and dropping both the bombs of the marriage and Richie getting sent away.

But what really drove it home?

"Where's Richie?"

"He's gone, Jane."

Gone. Just gone.

And what makes it hit harder for me is that she didnt get any type of closure. No written letter like Cynthia or the Birds, no parting words, no hug/kiss goodbye, no warning, no call.

The. Look. From. Jane!

To me, it was just like how Richie looked on Halloween. Like she just took a brutal hit straight to the chest. And the fact that after being dealt that blow is that it looks like she can't fully breathe.. Its like she's in a fog and even as she leaves, she cant even process what Olivia is doing and when we see the Ladies in her room.. And Jane looking like she just got shot and is in shock.. The way she takes shallow breaths while Cynthia and Nancy talk. They are probably talking in normal pitch but Jane doesn't even hear it. Cant register it. Its not until they move that she kinda comes back to earth and her eyes go from her friends before they snap to his jacket.

And Cynthia... Recognizing that if anyone should get or be wearing Ritchie's jacket.. it would be Jane. He wanted her to wear it.

"This belongs with you."

When she and Nancy put it over her and she takes several deep breaths and pulls it in tighter around her..

Good. God. I was a mess. I still am when I watch this scene over and over again.

I ranted about Richie and him trying to give Jane his jacket, about how it was the last piece of himself that he wanted to give her and now... Its the only piece of him she has left. I almost expected her to bury her face in the lapels and take a deep breath. And I would be willing to bet that if Richie were to see her wearing it now... Many emotions would be present.

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