*questioning my whole existence*

Me outside:

Me inside:

All I am going to do in the next lines is to talk about Destiel. I’m warning you. So, here I go.

Sorry If my english is not perfect, I’m spanish (:

So, Destiel. Big part of the Supernatural fandom ships it, and 98% porcent of the fandom knows at least what it is.

 But, what makes Destiel so special? 

Let’s take a look at it. Castiel rescued Dean from hell, becoming like that, the biggest reason Dean is alive AND the first angel Dean ever saw.

Since Castiel did this, his feelings have been developing and he has been  becoming everytime more sensible and human. All of Cas’ feelings, or at least most of them, were are actually towards Dean Winchester, the man who taught him compassion and loyalty.

“You’re confusing loyalty and compassion with weakness”  — Castiel to Michael, 14x10 “Nihilism”

But, if you try to remember, Castiel used to think just like Michael in that aspect. Many, many seasons ago. When he was still serving heaven, with the mission stuck on his head. But what happened again? Right, Dean Winchester.

In season 5, JUST one season after Dean and Cas met each other, Castiel was already rebelling against heaven to save him. He and his brother.

“I’m hunted. I rebelled. And I did it, all of it, for you”  — Castiel to Dean, 5x02 “Good God, Y’All!”

And many people think that when Castiel said that, he reffered to both brothers when he said “for you”. Well, no. Because then he said “And you failed. You and your brother destroyed the world”. That “you and YOUR BROTHER”  (emphasizing on “YOUR BROTHERRR”) lets us know that with “you” he was talking to Dean.

 And I’m not trying to say that Cas doesn’t love Sam, and actually that’s another thing: Would Sam and Cas die for each other? Yes, they would. Would they give everything to save each other? Yes, they would. But that’s because they love each other like family. Like a best friend, or a brother. The deal with Dean and Cas, goes beyond friendship, beyond brotherhood, it becomes something bigger. 

“Dean and I do share a more profound bond” — Castiel to Sam, 6x03 “The Third Man”

Do you get my point? Yeah, you do. 

In 15x03 we witnessed something sad. Something depressing. Something that kept me crying all nights (actually, yeah) and made me think that my Destiel would be just forgotten.

But, then 15x08 aired. Adam came back from the cage (yey adam! :D) and something very beautiful happened.

D: (...) What happened to you... you’re a good man. You didn’t deserve that. 

A: Hm... since when do we get what we deserve?

In that moment, that BEAUTIFUL moment (I will never stop saying I love Adam and I know this has nothing to do with Destiel but I love Adam hah), Adam looked at Cas, and then he left the room. 

When Adam wasn’t there anymore, Dean and Cas stared at each other for a few seconds. Not much time, because they literally had a fucking portal to purgatory open in that room, but it was enough to express a lot. Have you ever heard that adage of “one look is worth a thousand words”? Well, that few seconds meant so much.

And, the next episode, brought Destiel back to the game. 

“Cas, Cas, I hope you can hear me, that wherever you are it’s not too late. I should have stopped you. You’re my best friend but I just let you go.. ‘cause that was easier than admitting that I was wrong. I, I don’t know why I get so angry. I just know that I know that it’s just always been there.. and when things go bad it, it just comes out and I, I can’t stop it .no matter how, how bad I want to I just can’t stop it… and I, I for..forgive you, of course I forgive you! I’m sorry it took me so long… I’m sorry it took me til now to say it.. Cas, I’m so sorry”

— Dean to Castiel, trough prayer. 15x09 “The Trap”

Well, first of all, I started to cry like a crazy bitch when this happened. Dean definitely regrets what he said to Cas, and he starts to lose hope in that Castiel ever forgives him. But Cas does, and we can actually see how Deans starts to feel complete again. Moment. By. Moment. 

In conclussion, and trying to not make this a 3000 words essay. Dean and Castiel have been trough a lot together. They complement each other. The bond they share is not just because Castiel gripped Dean out of hell, but because they have done and will do everything to see each other happy. They fight. Of course they fight, but they always find their way back to each other’s arms.

 People that doesn’t ship Destiel: look, I get it. I totally get it. But you, non-shippers, can’t deny this. This is love, a love story. The angel that gave up heaven for one man. The man that cleaned purgatory to save his angel, and I’m sure that if I stop writing right now, there will still be lots and lots of reasons for Destiel to exist.

 Destiel is not just wanting them to be together because they “look good together”. Not even because “they have chemistry”. It’s because they would love each other for eternity. Problems doesn’t matter. Just the two of them, believing in each other when nobody else does. Carrying each other until they finish their goal. Taking care and understanding themselves, to take care and understand each other. 

That is Destiel. That’s why the Fandom loves it, and that’s why it will always be canon, even if they don’t confess their love in camera.

(however, dear SPN writers, it would be great if you make it canon. Very great, actually. If you do that, I will forgive you for all the cruel things you’ve done. Thank you)

So, if someone still wonders...

why Destiel? What makes Destiel so special?

The simple fact that, they mean past, present, and future to each other, and they always will.

And I shouldn’t be crying while writing, should I?

Okay hear me out.

Episode 14 of Season 5. My bloody Valentine.

Cass is explaining to Sam and Dean about one of the horsemen of the apocalypse, Famine. This is what happens;

“I thought famine meant starvation, like as in- you know, food.” Sam said

“Yes absolutely. But just not food. Everyone seems to be starving for something; sex, attention, drugs...” Cas pauses and says this to Dean, “Love.”

Virgo: We won’t see Cas until February

Capricorn:  We won’t see Cas until February

Gemini:  We won’t see Cas until February

Leo: We won’t see Cas until February

Aquarius:  We won’t see Cas until February

Aries:  We won’t see Cas until February

Pisces: We won’t see Cas until February

Libra:   We won’t see Cas until February

Scorpio:  We won’t see Cas until February

Virgo:  We won’t see Cas until February

Taurus:  We won’t see Cas until February

Cancer:  We won’t see Cas until February