This is not futile. This was my dream. A way to freedom. A path that would finally take me where I desired. All of this was NOT in vain. If and only if I'm brave enough to conquer this, I will finally have what I wanted. I will be free of all this toxicity. I am strong, I am capable and I am enough. I can do this. It's not too late. I still have time. All this exam is asking from me is some blood, sweat and tears. I can spare that. Its not too big of a cost, I can give that. I WILL GET THROUGH THIS. I am smart, I am intelligent and I am completely competent. I will do this.