As for the reason I've been coming onto tumblr less and less, I have no idea how to explain it aside from "I've gotten unmotivated to speak to people in general as of late". And after some personal issues a few weeks back, my apprehension to continue speaking to people grew more and more. 

It's not that I want to completely stop talking to everybody--I WANT to communicate with friends, and hang out--but I don't have the motivation or drive to speak to people. Even when people try to reach out to me, I've felt absolutely no drive to want to continue a conversation. I don't want to speak to people and give them a halfassed response, so I don't want to only be half paying attention to what the other person is saying. 

I want to talk to people, but idk how to get the energy to do so. 

Maybe my first step in doing that is to just open up to random people and not worry about what other people think about me. 

So for now, I'm going to post whatever the fuck I want on here more as a stress reliever than a conversational means (I'll try to converse too if others talk to me! I'm not completely ignoring people by coming onto tumblr). But I want to at least stop censoring material because I'm worried about the wellbeing of my followers. This is a PERSONAL BLOG, and I would very much like the freedom to post more about the things I like. If my likes are a little excessive, please unfollow. 

I'll still tag things, so please do tumblr savior tags you are uncomfortable seeing. 

I apologize for my long absence, and probably lack of depth in conversation, but I hope this is at least a step in the right direction; just being open to those here on this tumblr. I've been seeing a counselor lately as well, and she too suggested I try to be more open with people, so maybe this is a start????