Heal for me!

You got this.

And fingers?

Fuckin’

At least try and stay away?

Just for a day?

Because I’ve been performing in a couple of plays (I doubt the celts would’ve had bright red talons...) and oh my goodness gentlefriends, its not good.

My arms, scalp and back are terrible again.

And im so annoyed because I thought I was better.

I thought I had this under control.

I’m J and I’ve been picking at my skin ever since I was about 13 years old. It’s something that I didn’t realise was a problem until I realised that I couldn’t actually stop. Not really. The worst affected areas of my body are my back, scalp, legs and arms but I’m trying to get better! To control it a little more. I’ll get there!

✨I’ve flared✨

And frustrated because of the fact.

Just had an incident with mum because of it too.

I was on the phone to my nana because it’s her birthday and my hand was in my hair having a go at my scalp.. and despite having multiple conversations with mum about how her slapping my hand away or loudly pointing out what I’m doing humiliates me, she proceeded to suddenly grab my hand and squeeze my fingers until they hurt.

So of course I didn’t react well. I mean, I didn’t do anything awful I just pulled my hand free and glared at her for a long time because I wasn’t about to say anything too loudly with my nan on the phone.

Then. Then she had the audacity to tell me there’s no need for me to be nasty and that she did it for *my* benefit?!

Like *I’m* the bad guy here?!

I told her quietly that I didn’t appreciate being grabbed and she left the room.

Am I the asshole here? Because last time I checked I was very clear that those sort of “interventions” only cause embarrassment and are not helpful.

In the slightest.

If she had. I dunno, gently put her hand on mine and to just bring attention to what I was doing then that would been fine. I’d have realised and stopped.