#derma things

At this point, I don't know if I'm making progress or I'm just used to it

I try not to talk about my derma issues often because I don't want to bother people but ugh it's so awful and stressful dealing with it. I really hate all the scars on my body and I hate that it's so hard to stop picking....it's just...I wish I could stop but it's so hard and it frustrates me because I want to stop. I want to stop feeling so ugly.

on my date yesterday, the guy mistook my scars for freckles and it felt amazing

Activate "Search and Destroy--No Blemish Left Unpicked" Mode

Damn it allll. Even just thinking about mentioning dermatillomania to my family doctor sent me into the bathroom to pick at my face and arm and shoulder for 20 minutes. I think a diagnosis is just a formality at this point.

My upper arms have healed, mostly. There's still a handful of scabs on the back of my right arm, and my left arm only has a few. I would feel pretty good about that, except I've just been picking my shoulders and back instead. So I haven't gotten much better, I guess. But my point of focus has moved to a more inconspicuous area.