Noah stood there for a full ten minutes just staring at the door that Derek closed behind him. He couldn't process what the other boy told him. 'We’d all be better off without you.' It rang through his head, his breathing shallow. He couldn't actually wrap his head around the fact that someone who claimed to love him said something so horrid. That was just Derek's disorder saying that. . .right? He didn't actually believe that. . .or did he?
"You're an idiot for thinking this would really work, you know. He's fucking stupid and not worth it. Why did you think him of all people would be worth it? Come on, Noah, you're smarter than that. Just look at what he just told you." One of his hallucinations, Blink, was going on. Even if the dog made rude comments about everyone constantly and even made comments against Noah, he cared about the boy.
"Yeah, I know," he mumbled slowly. Noah ran a hand through his hair, his limbs shaking.
"You should listen to him, Noah," Max's voice soon rang through the room.
"Max, stop," Seven pleaded.
"Derek's right. His parents won't miss him, Derek won't miss him, Nat or Marie won't miss him, Evie won't miss him, it's not like he's got any fucking friends. I sure as fuck won't miss him."
"We'll miss him!" the number seven and dog chimed in. But that wasn't enough to stop Noah.
"Shut up. . ." the curly-haired boy mumbled in the direction of where he thought Seven and Blink were actually standing. Sitting down on the floor, he pulled out a large bin from underneath his bed. His hands fidgeted with the lid, trying to open it as quickly as he could.
"Good, Noah, good. Come on, you don't deserve to live. Why should you? You're worthless, nothing but a stupid whore that no one likes. You're scum. No one wants you. Derek doesn't want you, Evie doesn't want you, Andrew sure as fuck didn't want you."
As he listened to the hallucination, he finally got the lid open. Buried deep and hidden well was a noose that he had made years ago but never ended up using. Now was the time. His entire body trembled as he made sure it was still in tact and the knot tight. Everything Max said was true. His emerald eyes darted around the room, looking for something to higher him up.
"The chair," Max said nonchalantly, assisting him in any way.
"Max! Stop it now! Noah don't do it!" Seven was crying out which caused tears to spill down the boy's cheek. Seven was there since Noah himself was seven, even if he was just a hallucination, he loved him.
"I'm sorry, Seven, I'm sorry, Blink. I have to do this. I love you both, you know I do. But I just. . .I can't do this anymore. I have to do it for him, he'll be happier without me. He can find someone who can love him and trust like I can't."
"What about Nat? What about Evie? They care about you," he could hear the desperation in Seven's voice as he placed the chair under the ceiling light. He knew they were bolted into the ceiling and wouldn't come down; people had done it in the past before he arrived.
"They care, they'll be find. Nat has Marie. She has Mum and Dad. Evie--she'll definitely be fine. What does she need a seventeen-year-old for? Especially a crazy one." As he climbed up it, he tied the end as tightly as he could to the light. He wasn't letting himself fall from this. This was the moment, he wasn't fucking it up. He wanted to be gone, erased from the world.
"Seven, shut up. Noah made his decision, we're all going to be gone from the world, it's lovely," Max let out a bitter laugh.
"Everyone just shut the fuck up!" the curly-haired boy yelled out. Having three hallucinations yell at each other. He made his decision and he wasn't going to change it. He ignored the continuing bickering back and forth as he placed his head in the noose. It scared him but he knew this was the right thing to do it, there wasn't a doubt in his mind. With a deep breath, he kicked the chair from underneath him, his body dangling. A loud gasp came from his lips as his body struggled for air, unable to get anything, his body tingling. As he willed himself to calm down, his vision started to blur as he could faintly hear the cries of two out of three hallucinations.
