#depressionblogging

i don't know why i'm beating myself up for not creating or participating in anything when i already KNOW that thanksgiving > xmas is literally always the worst stretch of time for me and i'm just locked in a nebulous depression stress hell no matter what T o T

I think the biggest change I’m experiencing is in the little things.  The times it takes 5 seconds of extra effort to do something right.  Rinsing a dish after I use it.  Putting nice corners on the sheet when I make the bed.  (Also, making the bed.)  Putting an almost-cooked potato back in the oven to finish cooking, instead of eating it half-raw and pretending not to mind.

cw: alcohol mention

what i should be doing: taking a shower, cleaning out the craft room, drawing