I miss going out on Tuesday nights and feeling so alive and loved cuz I’ve got my bestest friends around me and we’re invincible and nothing could stop us.. I miss the feeling of not being alone bcuz we’ve got each other no matter what.. but now I don’t even get a text saying hi. or…let’s go out to Starbucks and catch up..schools been tuff..work is shit. Look at this new fuckboy I found on tinder..haha. It’s all just fucked, how quickly the people you’re the closest to are the ones who feel so far away. and as tuff as I try to be and as cold as I make my heart turn it’s always these god damn nights that strip that away and leave me posting sappy shit like this on a stupid blog site that no one reads or gives a fuck about. which is ok. I just need to vent somewhere because god forbid I actually talk about it in person with someone and show EMOTION. Nuh uh. best friends deserting you, yah, it’s gotten to me quite a bit. but not that much. I’ll be fine. the beginning always hurts, nothing I haven’t felt before. So here’s to 2017, the year of loneliness. And no, I’m not just ~alone this time. I am lonely. Gut wrenching loneliness. In all it’s glory. lonely.
