#deperession

I'm gunna be upfront, my mood hasn't been the best over the last few days because what support I had from my dad regarding my own personal choice to transition has been lost simply over 1 outspoken detransitioner on the radio.

I'd like to begin by saying that I do value the experiences of detransitioners, they had the bravery to go through with their transition only to later realise it wasn't right for them, so when I talk about detransitioners I in no way intend to devalue their experiences... However, when a detransitioner is set on devaluing the experiences of trans people THAT is when we have a problem, and that is when I take issue.

In this instance that 1 outspoken detransitioner on the radio was able to convince my dad who was listening in that my experience was invalid, that it's all in my head and my transition goals are the wrong thing to do, which lead him to come over to my home and start barking at me that I'm a girl, I'll never be a man, I can't change my biology (as if I don't already know that) and he doesn't condone what I strive for to bring me peace in my own body.

He then proceeds to maliciously misgender me after the situation had supposedly been de-escalated. And then today when I saw him again he starts going on with "You want people like me to see everything your way, but the opinions you hold on inclusiveness and trans rights have lost people their jobs" and I'm internationally thinking "the fuck you on about? I just wanna exist without being put on trial!" But try instead try to steer that conversation away as I felt more like he was directing his right wing views on me as a lefty rather than talking to me directly.

So my mood has been a bit shit, and my desire to write has been heavily impacted.

Moodboard for a slytherin hacker with depression and a fear of not being good enough for anon~

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