#dentistry ment

I suffer from dental trauma so I lately have been trying to encourage myself to brush my teeth and making a habit of being silly and saying "I'm going to go brush my teeth for fun" like it's what I look forward to most every day and my teeth are soooo squeaky clean even got their own bath of mouthwash

the relief of not feeling pain every time i eat, soon ill be able 2 use both sides of my mouth. i can have CHIPS again. it's weird but rly nice i cannot remember the last time i didnt have to worry about hurting while eating and food made me SO miserable it was exacerbating my disordered eating and it feels nice 2 not b like that idk

told fjord my reward 4 getting my teeth extracted was riverdale coming out again and he gave me A Look

my reward 4 getting my teeth extracted is riverdale is back in like a week

*sits in dentist waiting room* *feels nauseous and dizzy already*

*goes to the orthodontist* *hears the docs chat amongst themselves and mention "extractions" about three times in their exchange* I wanna die die die