#demipoem

Love is funny isn't it

Coming from a demi-mostly hetrosexual sis-gender female

For me

Love just loves fucking with me

All members of society who I have gotten close to

Sis-gender hetrosexual males

I have gotten into relationships with

All of them

ALL OF THEM

I now hide everything

Inside I worry that the next person

I open up to I will fall for

And it doesn't matter whether or not they will like me back

Ill ruin myself

Again and again its happened

It's been two years since I've been 100% honest with someone

And slowly

Every so slowly i've been opening up to others

But for shits shake

I can't do it to myself again

To ruin myself because I fell for a friend

Another friend

I've already lost too many to it

I can't lose another one

For I might be mentally unstable

But losing another friend will crush me so much

I don't know what I would do

If I did it to myself again

I've fallen for another friend

And feel awful

Because if I act in any way shape or form I will loose them

Again

And

And

And I will spill

i'm not even out of the last one

Maybe i'm halfway there

But doing it again to myself would send me

Deeper

So much deeper

Into this hole, i'm already in

I can feel it digging beneath me

I'm holding on to the slippery surface of the walls the are surrounding me

But

I'm starting to loose my grip

I can feel myself starting to slip

And if I call for help

I'm afraid they won't help me up

Oh you gotta like the sick jokes love plays