so hey guys. i know i havenāt really been around and yes, expect more of that. it was just the first week and iām already so damn tired of everything and i just want to sleep but i canātĀ ācause i have to memorize everythingĀ and i just want to lie down in all the paperwork and readings. this is generally what i am right now:
blockless. meaning i donāt have anyone i know to go with for every subject, except for my majors class
lost. the uni is enormous and my classes are spread out and every building i have classes on is either in the middle of nowhere or located at the other side of the campus
stressed. need i say more? other than college though, thereās this problem with transportation since i donāt have a dorm/flat near campus so i have to endure 2-3 hours riding the bus (which i probably killed someone for bc damn all of them are already full) just to go home.Ā
but ofc thatās not everything. despite of my state generally being the embodiment of hell itself, iām still happy. i mean, iām living the dream studying in this uni and yes i hope i get to maintain my scholarship and my place in this thing (!!!) we were introduced to what will be our curriculum and all of these PhD professors were talking about the chem courses weāre going to have to take and itās basically like watching a horror film and i can almost see my life flashing before my eyes. but seriously itās pretty... horrific and challenging and i guess iāll just take it one at a time. having said that, even though itās pretty much a given thing, i want to say that i wonāt be here as much bc i rly have to study and iām sorry for the challenges/asks/messages that are going to be stuck in my inbox in the future. iāll still check them out. iāll dig them all out, i swear and i want to interact with everyone but i have to prioritize my shit rn and yes. iāll be around eventually. xx