#delivery.

; you knew that it was wrong, and yet you still dreamt of him almost every night with no end.

there wasn’t an escape, but there was no return either. all you were able to do in order to help the pain of losing him subside was sit there and pretend. pretend that it never ended, and that he was still there with you.

he was done with you, and in his eyes, the feeling was quite mutual.

for the longest time you had rejected and ignored all of his little advances , but now that he was actually gone you couldn’t shake the incessant feeling of loneliness.

you found him to be a waste of your time , and yet you still felt the need to call him almost every night — despite never even receiving an answer.

in all honesty, pulled you down into a spiral of insanity. you wanted him , but you resented him for making you love him then leaving as if nothing had happened. moving on like there were no scars left behind.

it took years to get to the point where you were,, so why did he decide to let it all go the very moment you got comfortable?

” i think it’s pretty clear that this isn’t going to work anymore — let’s just lay it to rest , yeah ? ”

those were his exact words.

but despite all that, there you were again.

standing on the beach next to the other with your toes in the sand as the waves crashed over you two languidly.

you just wanted to ask him once more.

” was it all worth it ? “

but your mouth was dry and your jaw tightened.

there were no words to say, because you knew that this was the closest you’d get.

the closest you’d get to having him again.

and it wasn’t even real.

you were never one for receiving a lot of unnecessary attention, but something about the way that he always had you on his mind, always had your best interest, even occasionally making it to the point where it had you concerned due to how caring he was, intrigued you.

after a while it had finally piqued your interest, but by the time you were ready to dip your feet into the water it was far too late.

his interest had dwindled and it would be difficult to get it back, under any circumstances.

a short breath of air left the male’s mouth, quickly mixing into the air before he turned to you and spoke.

” what was it about me that made you play so hard to get ? why did you think i’d keep chasing you on and on to the ends of the earth ? “ he inquired , voice low and void of any emotion as his empty gaze met yours.

everything was off key now.

you were confused — had that really been what you were expecting from him? it didn’t feel like something you’d want from a person.

and yet you could feel it - you could sense it.

even in the beginning , you were the problem.

but as you arose from your dream, feeling drowsy and blue, you knew there was no turning back and that there was no second chance.

you stood idly by your window, lips ever so slightly parted as you watched him with another, a wide and cheesy smile on his face.

that was when you knew that you weren’t fireproof, and neither was he.

some relationships begin only to end.

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