#delete later!

on top of all that, i unfortunately got into a motorcycle accident w my bf (saw this coming loll) and have been recovering from terrible road rash. i am typing this on one hand as i say all these 😹 it’s tough. but as soon as i fully heal and am perfectly able to breathe from everything, i will finally finally try to pick up writing again. for now, advance happy holidays! <33 stay warm and cozy everyone!

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i just rlly want pal :((

i’ve been horrible at putting things into words recently but lately fandom has felt rlly isolating for some rzn sadly like idk most of the dead dove friends i’ve made have either moved on or deactivated & i’ve not been able to connect with many new people since!! like a lot of people have called me scary/intimidating & i don’t want to make anyone uncomfortable obv but i’m also nervous about interacting with my non-dead dove friends/new non-dead dove people because i don’t want them to get hate for associating with me 😭 i’m rlly grateful for the interaction i get & the conversations i do have but it’s been kind of hard to write lately too bcs i’ve kind of hated everything i’ve ever written LMAO it’ll probably pass but i didn’t want to leave everyone without an explanation as to why i’ve not posted in like. two months… i just wish i knew what it was that makes me unapproachable so i could turn it off!!

EPILEPSY WARNING. (i switch between color mapping which is essentially bright colors flickering)