deiamore replied to your post: ...
can we ask what you cut out?? because now Iâm deeply curious haha
Sure thing!
Rather than pneumonia, Dean was originally supposed to have autonomic dysreflexia. Why did I use pnuemonia instead? I think I, uh, forgot that I was going to go the AD route. Oops. AD isn't necessarily sadder, just... different.
Dean was originally meant to struggle more with social anxiety and agoraphobia. Going out into the garden was a way bigger deal for him, and the panic attack when they went on the walk was less of a one-off event and more of a 'Oh shit, this is a problem, isn't it?' thing. I didn't like that angle, though, so I reduced his anxiety issues.
The main thing I cut out, though, regards Jo. Jo was originally supposed to die of her MS during the fic. Hell, it's even one of the reasons I picked I'm Yours as the fic's 'key song':
The day news came, my best friend died My knees went weak and you saw me cry Say I'm still the soldier in your eyes
But the fic was already long, and already sad, and I didn't feel I had the time/space/pacing to do justice to such an important thing, so instead I wrote in some decline and left it at that.
That being said, I hadn't planned out that flashback scene until I was actually writing it. My plans don't always, uh, work out ;)
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