โ the truth is, i want to change. i need to change. โ
Psyche Starters || From Here
ย ย ย Legs dangled and swung from their chair, fingers drumming without sound against a metal table the two had been chatting around for what felt like forever and never at the exact same time. This one was a little jumbled up on the inside, it seemed. And that was putting it lightly.ย
ย ย ย She had said so much, yet still Tails felt like she had only spoken the beginning layers of what merely framed her sorrowful existence. It didnโt make the fox any less inclined to stay around her, no... he was just upset he didnโt know how to help.
ย ย ย He hummed, one brow lowering, mouth quirking to the side.ย โThatโs the thing with change... Personal change, anyways. At the end of the day, it truly has to beย you that makes the decision to change. People can influence that decision in a whole bunchโa ways, but this is one of those things where itโs you whoโs gotta take that one final step.ย Thatโs not to say youโve gotta go it alone from start tโfinish, now. Iโm sure your friendsโll be with you for every step up to that last one, though, and thatโll make the way toward that change a lot easier.โ
ย ย ย โIf someone tells you to act a different way, then you didnโt change. Youโre just being directed down a path you can either accept or refuse. But thatโs not change.โ Eyes drift off for but a singular beat, thinking about Eggman and the likes, before returning to Cosmo.ย โLike... here.โ Fingers press up against themselves in thought, brain rolling before a casual point of the finger is slung toward Cosmo.
ย ย ย โSonic and I, heโs changed me in so many crazy ways, I wouldnโt even recognize myself if I saw the before and after! Iโm more confident, I trust in my own judgment a lot more, Iโm not afraid to use my skills instead of the skills of people I admired...
ย ย ย Because for the longest time, I wanted to be just like Sonic. To a fault. And because of my infatuation with the guy, I was capping myself to be nothing more than a lesser version of him. It wasnโt until I recognized the problem, identified it, isolated it, and changed it. I allowed myself to change into someone comprised of both his parts and mine that I could be even better than I would be residing strictly in Sonicโs shadow!โ
ย ย ย ...The foxโs head collapsed dramatically to the table, arms splayed out wide and far, one hollow beat of a chuckle falling out and to the floor. And when his head lifts? The only way to describe his face is tired. โDid any of that make sense? I.... I have a tendency to ramble about stuff people donโt get, so donโt be afraid to stare at me like I just grew a third tail.โ
