#deepdarkthought

Add ten songs that you feel describe how you are right now, whether it be lyrics or overall feel of the song.

Put it on me - Matt Maeson

Faithless - City and Colour

The end of love - Florence + The Machine

Hypnotised - Years & Years

Cloud - Elias

FAME - Mikky Ekko

One last time - Jaymes Young

Burn out - Imagine Dragons

Paradise - The Neighbourhood

Take this lonely heart - Nothing But Thieves

I was tagged by my lovely @likesapphirestars, twice actually!

Answer 8 questions then tag eight people

Last movie I watched - Labyrinth

Last song I listened to - Wolf by Beach Weather that summer playlist is happening oh my god

Last book I read - If we’re going there, then Income tax by Lodin et al, but otherwise, The King’s Men by Nora Sakavic

Last thing I ate - Cereal

Where would you like to time travel to - To the 20′s tbh, I’d like to be a flapper for a while

Fictional character I would hang out with for a day - I’d give anything for a day with Mary Crawley

If I could be anywhere right now, where would I be honestly?- HOME, oh my god i’m going home tomorrow, and I can’t wait for it

Current fandom obsession - All For The Game

Thought the same today (though it was curry, not blueberry)

i survived the tomato sauce for dinner too!

September’s Stars

@deepdarkthought - this is a loveliest of mutuals appreciation post. i feel so bad, because i honestly cannot for the life of me remember how i was first introduced to deepdarkthought. but on the other hand it feels like she’s just been around forever?? seeing her on my dash always puts a smile on my face, and i sadly don’t get to see her even nearly as much as i’d like to. deep dark thoughts are just one of those comfort blogs, you know? a lovely mix of a little bit of everything, and you should all just take the time to check her out, okay? you won’t be disappointed, trust me. ooh, and if you’re into books, you are required to check her out, seeing how she’s one of my two faves when it comes to that area. she’s also a fellow swede, so if you need more scandinavian representation on your dash, you know where you’re heading. and she’s just the sweetest person and has been so good to me for all these years we’ve known each other, and she deserves all the love and praise <3

@radioactivebroccoli - she’s a nerd. a giant nerd. that’s all you need to know really. she’s my giant nerd. okay but seriously, LIA! how would i describe lia? i don’t even know where to start. she’s literally the sweetest. she has sat through so much of my bullshit, and somehow she’s still around. you all deserve to know about the literal ray of kindness that is lia. i sadly don’t remember how i stumbled upon her in the first place, but she’s another fellow swede, and i have a feeling that may have had something to do with it. and yet another multifandom blog, that’s just an utter delight to scroll through. she has the greatest sense of humor, which may not be much of a compliment now that i think about it, seeing how my own sense of humor is fucked up on several different levels, but still. y’all are around for some reason, right? she covers a lot of fandoms that i’m not a part of, and i have introduced coerced her into several fandoms of my own, so if you enjoy creating chaos, well well well should be a great compliment. and just. lia everybody. give the gal some love. lord knows she deserves it. you giant nerd.

Right back at yah <3 and if anything gets worse over the summer, just tell me okay? (I'm not home that much anymore, even on summers, so that part's quite fine for me at the moment)

You’re literally too sweet <3

Same here, my mum only know a very small part of my problems, but the judgmental voice/face she got when I told her that part makes me never want to tell her anything like that ever again.

I am so sorry to hear that.

But at least we can find some comfort in knowing that we’re not alone??

This, “revelation” of sorts, or whatever it is you want to call it, actually started a few years ago, when I was just in the starting process of working out exactly what my problems was. I have social anxiety and am extremely introverted, and no not deal well with crowds at all. And we were at this charity running event with her co-workers, and there was this event pit that was crowded. And it was just so loud and there was too many people, I got a sensory overload and had a minor panic attack. I managed to keep her off my back the entire evening, but as we sat on the buss back home, an oh so casual comment about how I was not comfortable with that much people around me managed to slip out. And mom wasted no time before jumping on me with that spiteful attitude and going “well I guess we need to get you medicated then”.

And that’s not what a confused 15 year old needs to hear.

Now I’m not speaking bad of medication!! I’m actually doing the opposite! Medication is great! I have actually considered having the possibility of going on meds myself investigated a million times, but there’s also a million reasons to why I haven’t. What I’m trying to say is that when the idea of it was first introduced with that judgement and hostility, it just reinforced the idea that there was something severely wrong with me. That I was an abnormality that had to be fixed. And yes, I’m sick, but there’s not something necessarily wrong with that. And I just... Oh, wow, I’m crying, this is not cool.

You didn’t ask to hear my sob story, but I just... This is such a dilemma, because I do love my mother, I really do. But I just feel like I’m never going to be able to trust her with this part of my life. Which is frustrating.

And I’ll stop rambling now. But I guess I just wanted you to know that I’m here? I know what you’re going through, and I’m always here to support. We can be each other’s mom’s and help each other when our own mother’s can’t.

Or something.

Am I the only one that actually likes him? *hides*

#INDEPENDENT NORTHERN SWEDEN 2K17

My family

Tea

Gloomy weather

A good book or movie