#deeffeeling

Thinking to myself, how wonderful it is for me to be in this position. To be able to have the money in my pocket to have the choice. To make the choice in my mind and be able to experience it in the physical. I was watching Flat Share and had had a Zimbabwean chocolate digestive which I had placed in the fridge because when I do eat chocolate it must be frozen or at least very chilled.

I was indulging in one thinking ohh my goodness there aren't many left and Zimbabwe is not down the road so what is my next option. I then took myself upstairs to continue watching Flat Share a show I had started watching earlier on this week. hmm... or was it last week. Anyways. I couldn't get them out of my mind and when the episode I was watching finished, I got dressed and started walking to the nearest supermarket After chatting with the enthusiastic children that had visited their grandmother. I continued on my path.

I chose a playlist which featured poetic heartfelt songs. With the first song on the list being Nat King Cole-Pretend'. A song I was introduced to by Bob Proctor during one of his life affirming seminars. I was overcome by the emotion of appreciation. Deep gratitude whilst listening to my playlist. ''Nat King Cole-Pretend''. ''Ella Fitzgerald ft Louis Armstrong Cheek to Cheek''. ''Frank Sinatra- My way''.

I began to think. We get so consumed I thought with wanting to make more money to assert our position on this planet. To have that gadget and that outfit and hit those numbers. Date this person and that person etc.... However, after taking in a deep breath. I remembered that you know what there's so much more to my existence, so much more to our existence 'Louis Armstrong's what a beautiful world' was playing as though it was serenading my being connected with self or rather truth thoughts.

There's so much more, that we miss and do not prioritise. Listen to the birds, the cars, just to be alive is a gift. A gift so overlooked because consumerism and capitalism has become our God. What we strive for can so easily be replaced and yet time. Time is something we can never replace or replicate.

What happened to our child like wonder, our curious desire to discover, learn and investigate. ?

When was the last time you looked up, paused and looked at the sky for a minute.? When was the last time you looked at the details of the lines that run across both your hands. How and why where they formed, which one of your ancestors in your gene pool played their part in this ? Have you ever wondered about the life force that flows through you and what happens to it when you're faced with a lifeless corpse whether it be a human, insect or plant. ?

Hmmmmmmmmm, I wonder with gratitude of course. I've won the lottery and now I know. I am grateful for where I am, with the wisdom I have learned