#december26th2018

Didn’t do good today. I didn’t wake up early. I didn’t take a lunch and went to del taco. Slacked off a ton at work. I had soda at work/lunch. Other than that It was a good day. I did get a bit done at work. I got all my dishes done. I exercised. I did some laundry. I had a really good dinner and now I going to go do some writing. read some before bed and stretch. I feel bad for not going to Shea’s dinner. I should have went, but whatever. I didn’t miss out on anything. I would have just talked and drank and had fun, but I just didn’t feel like going. I just want to be gone and relax and have a dog. That’s all I really need. That’s priority #1. I can pay the deposit on the 4th then I’ll hit up Crystal. I would love to have Mona back. She’s chill, and it’ll be perfect. she’ll probably live a couple more years. I would take amazing care of her. and take her on walks everyday and show her so much love! I have no clue if Crystal will be down. Couldn’t hurt to ask, I’ll ask Neal and see how sere feels about it. Just Mention how he say shes not the same I’ll ask Him

Cont on 12/25

I would like someone that’s just down to chill and listen to  music and do hobbies. It would be so great. Like if I had someone here right now cuddling up to each other. I probably would be not writing. I feel it would have to be if she’s over a lot and I forget to write then hopefully they don't thinks its weird. cause its going to happen. I don’t think I will ever stop writing. It’s so good for me. To get all these thoughts and feelings out. I won’t make it by the end of the year, Filling up the journal that is. I’d have to write like 20 days a day. Even with the extra week. I’m still going to get a new one and start on it on the first. I don’t want to get behind again. It set me back like 9 months. The past 6 months and the 3 months it’s going to take to get back there or at least a lot closer. I’m definitely going to keep up with the working out. I’m determined to get down to 170 again. Man I felt good. I feel like garbage right now. And its definitely the beard fault. I’m going to shave this thing off when I get done with this day. Good bye sweet beard. You always treat me well.

Cont on 12/24

No but my face is chubby. My beard had been hiding it. But never again. Well, maybe, but if I start noticing my weight going up and my beard getting long, I will trim/shave my beard. I feel this is a big enough change that If I did shave completely I wouldn’t be recognized. But it’s cool. I’m glad its gone. It was time. I couldn’t wait for NYE. I swear it was because eating that sand0wich was just horrible. I made me not enjoy that delicious sandwich. I’ll take tamales for lunch, then have another one of those sandwiches and spruce it up a smidge. Throw some of these diced jalapenos and hear it up with the PR. I do have parm. that'll be good. Especially with a toasted bread and my be I be make a little pan sauce to put in there. It’ll be a good dinner. Maybe I’ll wake up and do some time on the bike. I really should, but we’ll see. I kind of want want to start exercising in the evenings and still be a morning person. Especially with a nice yard. I’m going to do that!~ Going out is of lame-0s

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