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popping in real quick to wish you all the best new year's (eve) ever and to also yeah, reminisce a little bit.
2024 was definitely not my year. lol that's maybe not your average take here on loablr but it's mine and i'm sticking to it because you see, even tho it was one more year that i spent doing the same old shit and feeling sorry for myself, it was also the year that i finally stopped doing that.
or at least it's what happened these last two months.
they were better than the whole other ten, to which i am very thankful. had i stayed on that mindset, i wouldn't have accomplished any of the things i was able to accomplish over these 60-ish days and i would be feeling miserable just like i did every single new year's eve for the past... i don't even know how long.
this ramble might not mean anything to you, but it is so insane to me that i'm not in my bed, wishing to not be here anymore because of how lonely and sad i feel. this time, i feel empowered. i feel like i can do anything i want and i can get anything i want... the girl i was last year would not think this to be possible.
my plan is to simply keep this mindset up over the next year and see what fun things i get in return. truth is, i'm tired of methods, of do-this-over-that, right or wrong, gurus and whatnot. all it did for me was put pressure on what should have been light and easy. and ever since i stopped numbering things, listing things, desiring things... they just started showing up in my life, like a gift. so yeah, i like this better than the waiting.
anyway, if you're still reading this i hope you have the best day. i hope you find what works for you and stick with it. and i hope you get to experience the loveliest, most fulfilled life there is because you know what? you deserve it. and so do i.
