#death...

I will take a hammer and fix the baby

*cough* wow what was that I think I just got possessed for a second. anyway

If we presume that the pipis is some sort of living creature, and Tenna knows this and cares about it deeply-- perhaps in a sort of neglectful way, or perhaps the pipis just genuinely does not need that much care, I'm leaning towards the latter-- anyway, it would be devastating if it died in his absence.

It would be yet another thing that would make him feel like a failure, and a weight that would be particularly difficult to cope with. Out of all he has lost, I think the knowledge that a living thing he cared about died due to his absence would be the most difficult to cope with. He can adapt to and learn to live with his disabilities and PTSD, but a life cannot be brought back.

It's the Stanley cup final 2019.

Toronto is facing San Jose.

maybe i’m just unreasonable but my housemate gives me ‘school shooter’ type vibes. he’s the one who snapped the previous weekend and told me im a c--t and my pronoun is “bitch” in front of his mom, who was also yelling at me and telling me i deserve to be misgendered.

he’s the type of white guy who wears a black trenchcoat LITERALLY everywhere, literally thinks BLM is a “terrorist organization,” and acts like his opinions are logically pure bc he knows computer programming.

anyways i keep my door locked 24/7 but it would be easy to break and i am constantly paranoid the next time he snaps it could be worse.

if, for some wild reason, he does end up like.... killing me.. im really certain the news coverage would be like “he is so mild mannered, has good grades, he’s an eagle scout and has never gotten in trouble before.” his mom is a conservative christian freak, she is literally afraid of muslims and black people.

anyways it would just suck a lot. his mom would probably say that he was my “biggest supporter” and i probably provoked the attack or something.

idk sorry to bring this up. but i wanted to document it somewhere just in case :/