#dearpillow

I see love that you've joined the ranks of my pillows. I'm sorry for the fact that I wasn't enough to help you anymore. I'm sorry I didn't know how to read your mind. I'd have told you it was ok long before the silence and cold caresses. Long before the distant cuddles and the angry conversations that you now term as fights. I'm sorry I wasn't able to get in through your wall. I'm sorry I pushed you away. I know this will never be enough but honey I'm sorry I hurt you to leave behind more than anything.

Can we go back in time? Can I change how much of a fool I made of myself? Can we just remember what there was from us, and instead of it being a distant memory can you remember that I haven't changed that much? See the way my mouth forms it's sentences, the light within my eyes. That awkward way I don't notice that anything exist when you are near. The way I can quote documentaries in everyday life. The children movies and shows recommended to my Netflix considering how much of an adult child I still am. The way I still make a thousand playlist on my Spotify, and delete them all within a month; the fact that all of yours are still existent on my account though you haven't used it in over a year. The fact that I'd rather sit beside you and let you feed me than across from you just gazing into your eyes. My ideal date is still sitting beside you with the wind through our hair and good music being shared and debated. I've changed a lot over the last couple years, and yes you have missed it; however, should I be punished for you keeping me at arms length?

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