#dearest alex

Things are better. They’re just better when I try. But I hate trying. I’m just usually happy when I’m with vanessa kim and michelle, on the phone with josiah, or any form of communication with dominick. Whether its in person, texting or on the phone. It just sucks because every time I’m like dude what the heck you suck, I get pulled back in. He’s like the best and the worst right now. And no one has ever been as confusing as him. But I’m dealing with it, or so I try to..because..Idk. And my friends are just the best to be with honestly, always laughing and making insiders and beautiful senior memories. And josiah is just a pain lol, but I love him because no one makes me laugh like him. I miss him every day. Even though we talk every day. He’s possibly my favorite person right now. He just knows what to say for everything, sounds real cliche but its the truth. I just really love him and am so thankful for him. And it’s just nice to know he loves me not just because he says it, because I just know.