#deadlysericus

‘ mornin’… ’

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Picked up a sudden, new nervous habit of snapping his fingers on the way home about half-way through, just after the thirty-minute-mark. She’d smiled, kind, good, and said it was alright. All things past are past, and it’s good that he’s willing to talk about, taking strides to talk about it, and that he’s already in good connections with his twin brother -- has been for a while, really, but he remembers -- is already half the issue won.

Ah, Josh, and... that thing. Because the mountain doesn’t register as anything but fantasy to everyone else. Alright, sure.

And, she’d said, it might be a good idea to talk about it with his significant other. Seems to be a favourite phrase of Doc Whitley’s. Oh, but which part, he’d asked. He knew, and she knew he knew, judging by the way her chin dipped and brow raised.

“Honey, I’m hoooome.” He’s considering it, right now; considering the words, the explanation, saying it twice, going round the houses and making things worse for himself and saying things that don’t make sense and Chris misunderstands--- Jake scratches between Susan’s ears, easing her suddenly frantic meowing. Like she knows. Cats’re funny that way.

“Anyway, my doctor was like, maybe you could talk to your significant other about your shit, but all doctor-like, you know? Talking about... uh, stuff.”

... Shit. Shit, shit, shit---

No going back, really. Can only tell if it’s a good idea when it happens, can’t you?

“So uh... if you wanna? You don’t have to, obviously, but... just a suggestion.”

5. how do they dress? what styles, colours, accessories, and other possessions do they favour? why?

ollie wears a lot of pastel colours, often combined with black skinny jeans and matching converse or dr martens. he is a big fan of extraordinarily oversized sweaters or hoodies, with sleeves that hang loose over his hands, and tends to favour these in autumn and winter, while spring brings the appearance of t-shirts and denim jeans. but summer is by far the highpoint of oliver’s wardrobe, as that is when the croptops and shorts make their appearance. as he gets older, ollie becomes more comfortable with how his body looks, and is showing off his belly at the first sign of summer.

10. what energises and drains them most?

ollie gets a buzz out of competitive video games. whether its mariokart or halo, he has to win. he gets a kick out of beating his friends and randoms strangers alike, but he has been known to rage-quit when things don’t quite go his way.

as for what drains him, basically anything he doesn’t find interesting, but the worst way to physically and emotionally drain ollie, is for him to spend time with someone he doesn’t really like. he tries his best to be civil or at least neutral towards everyone, but there is only so far he can go before the guise slips and he needs to get the hell outta dodge.

15. what kind of inner life do they have — rich and imaginative? calculating and practical? full of doubts and fears? does it find any sort of outlet in their lives?

to the average bystander, ollie is quite cheery and full of joy, but he couldn’t be farther from it. inside ollie is deeply insecure and self-critical, replaying events from years in the past and condemning himself for how things played out. ollie is also very quick to take blame onto himself, as he thinks that if something bad happens, he should have stopped it. this stems from his brother’s car accident (and death) when ollie was only ten. the only time people get a glimpse of this side of him is when they spend a lengthy period of time alone with oliver. he needs to trust them completely before opening up about his grief. 

he just fights it back with smiles most of the time.

20. what kind of individual relationships do they have with others, and how do they behave in them? how are they different between intimate relationships like friends, family, and lovers versus more impersonal relationships?

oliver is full on in every respect of the word. if you’re a family member, he is immensely protective, as well as proud. nothing is more important to oliver than his family and he would die to protect any one of them.

intimate relationships are harder to explain, however, depending on the person. oliver falls in love very quick, and he falls hard. this means he can often be oblivious to a person’s faults until it is too late, and somebody has already gotten hurt as a result. though, if the relationship is healthy, and happy, oliver is one of the most gentle and considerate partners. he’s all about soft gestures and spending all day in bed, or building blanket forts and acting like kids. ollie’s boyfriends are the only people who get to see him in his entirety, at his brightest and darkest moments. 

ollie is a loyal friend through and through, and while he tries to stay neutral when conflict arises, he often does end up taking sides with those he is closest to, unless he is sure they are in the wrong. he will (and has been known to) fight for his friends.

25. what do they need and want out of relationships, and how do they go about getting it?

all oliver wants is someone who he can be comfortable around, and while he can be naive at times, he is generally quite good at deciding who would accept him for all his faults and insecurities. he is not selfish, but he wouldn’t intentionally enter into a relationship that would not benefit him.

30. what is their preferred level of activity and stimulation? how do they cope if they get either too little or too much?

ollie is a very laid back person in terms of activity. he swims, and does gymnastics, but he doesn’t spend every day training. he has been known to spends days in bed binge watching some series on netflix, or go on extremely long walks in the middle of the night. oliver’s activity has little to no routine and he likes it that way. that being said, if it ever occurs that he does get too much stimulation, ollie is no stranger to locking himself away for a week, with no contact or activity on social networks with anyone outside of his family. 

35. how and why do they internalise knowledge? what effect has that had on them?

idk how to answer this to be completely honest ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

40. what do they wonder about? what sparks their curiosity and imagination, and why? how is this expressed, if it is?

the main thing ollie wonders about, is whether his brother would be proud of him. before his death, ollie’s brother had been his rock. he’d support him no matter what, and always look out for him. he’d scare off the schoolyard bullies, and pick ollie up whenever he fell. he taught him how to ride a bike, and skateboard, and swim, and as they both grew up, ollie always looked to his brother for advice and direction. but he was only ten when his brother died, and he has changed so much since then. he’s comfortable in his sexuality, his relationships, and his interests, but he can’t help but wonder if tommy would support him.

but deep down ollie knows that he would.

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