#dayninety

But still, it was time well spent updating my old romance story.

I paid for it later when it got to 11am and I was exhausted. So after waiting for H’s birthday card to get delivered to my apartment, I broke my ‘Sunday before work the next day’ rule and took a nap.

I had a weird dream about X.

I dreamt that she called me on FaceTime and that I actually answered. The weird thing is that we had a civil bordering on friendly conversation, even though I knew we were broken up in the dream.

All of a sudden, a girl came into X’s bedroom while she was on the phone with me. X introduced her as her friend Joanne, who I now remember is actually X’s ex-girlfriend from a few years back. I greeted Joanne with a sincere smile on my face.

Then out of nowhere, Joanne sat down on X’s bed and they started kissing - in front of me! I played it cool by continuing to smile, but in my head, I kept thinking about how I wanted to kill them both and burn X’s house down.

I know what you’re thinking: I was jealous. Maybe it was a little about that, but I distinctly remember being pissed off in the dream just because X was already kissing someone else after we’d broken up three months ago. I got pissy with KA for the same reason when I wanted to get back together two months after we broke up and I found out that she’d met someone else.

It’s the principle of it all. X is most certainly not allowed to have any rebound fun if I can’t do the same. Not that I want to either back-slide with X or have a rebound with someone else. I just don’t want X to move on before me, as dumb as it sounds. She broke my heart, so she should pay the penance of being just as miserable as I’ve been for months.

Anyway, I was steaming mad about it when I woke up. And I guess it affected my mood, even when I went out later to the salon to get my hair done. Now my head is throbbing and I want to sleep. I’ll skip writing tonight and just get some rest. Teaching is probably going to be shitty tomorrow with getting my young’uns to practice their English writing.

I think I’ll just read before bed to help me relax. My acid reflux has been acting up all day today, which is making me really grumpy too.