#dapper talks

Okay, so like I said, I’m gonna be redoing this blog! Hopefully I’ll be getting some stuff done for the theme but that’s not really a priority. What is priority is renaming it and creating a new blog for art! I will be making a post when I do that so hopefully it won’t be taking anyone by surprise. But there will actually hopefully be a relatively uninterrupted flow of art when I can post it!

Okay, so like I said, my laptop has completely quit working. Our (mine and my mother’s) desktop is so old that Tumblr literally freezes it because the website is so shite. So everything I do online has had to be done from a tablet that can barely load the website and I can’t even really type from. Obviously even the art I’ve wanted to post I haven’t been able to post because if I want to post anything at all from my tablet I have to save the image in a draft email and retrieve it on the tablet and then pray tumblr decides to work. Not exactly ideal. Right now I’m posting from a friend’s laptop because she is amazing and is letting me borrow it for a few days. I’ll be plugging the shit out of her on a separate post.

Next thing is some general personal issues. I don’t really want to go too into detail with this but I’ve been struggling with depression and anxiety for a while. It’s something I’m currently working on but sometimes it’s a bit hard to do basic things much less produce content to put on here. So that’s put a dent in my ability to get art done that I’d really want to post, because everything I do has been either extremely self indulgent or vent things that I’m really not comfortable having on here.

The biggest thing in the last year however is that I lost my Gram in December. It’s still extremely difficult to talk about because we were very close my entire life and I’ve been struggling immensely with the loss. But for the six or so months just before her passing she was in and out of the hospital and a rehabilitation center, so for a long time I was very rarely home at all, and when I was, I was exhausted. I still am, really.