#dangerous?

But we do, anon 😔 we care you.

Something that I've been realizing/researching/thinking abt latley is that one of my biggest coping mechanisms is escapism, specifcally meladaptive daydreaming, that I do in what may or may not be a response to trauma of some kind? (Little T, i think, might just also be the past year or so in general, or something idk) which then leads to the thinking of, if I want to heal, or stop, or whatever it is I need to do (seeing as especially latley it has become more of an Actual Problem, distracting me from... Generaly Living?) I will have to stop daydreaming and shit? Which scares me.

I've been doing this shit for as long as I can remember, and I know that I started because I liked it as well as to cope with both the inconsistency of the people around me and where I was living. (Which I specifically remember that was why I made/what I used my ocs for because I always said "these are the friends that stay with me", which... Thinking back is so sad, and I still do it all the time????) But also I just genuinely enjoyed it. Now its become "well what would I do if I didn't??? What would my brain be full of??" So I'm scared that if I want to address things and become healthier I might have to stop daydreaming, which sucks. So it makes me even more hesitant to look into therapy or whatever the fuck (on top of my parent's general thoughts toward the entire situation, as well as finances, and everything else) because I.... I mean I've lived this long and gotten through ok, right? i'll be fine even if it might not be the healthiest thing to do- which we dont even know if its unhealthy- it couldbe okorsomethingidkman--

First of all, thank you to those who took the time to read my writings. It makes me happy to entertain people with them. I have been a fan of Darkwing Duck my whole life it seems and now I have the fuel to get a bit more creative with the new material Ducktales has put out. 

In my writings of Jim Starling, I’m pretty much treating him like Walter White from Breaking Bad in the sense that they really weren’t the ‘good guys’ to begin with.  I believe the ‘Negaduck’ side of Jim was always there but it came out in other forms. Jim just has a really good poker face like Gus. It wasn’t until the movie fiasco that side reared its ugly head fully to where it may never return to the depths from which it came. 

Edit: ALSO! I wanted to throw this out that Jim and Morgan’s daughter won’t ever be a thing and Negaduck won’t have any interest in pursuing Mina in any way. Jim may try to be a second father to Mina when he and Morgan are working together but it won’t work out with her real father and ‘Uncle Sparky’ hovering about. Other than that, Mina probably won’t show up as often.

He might just blow us to pieces!