#damnithurts

Her beautiful chestnut eyes sparkling alligned with the stars and crinkled with smiles as she whirl around with her alluring floor length gown admire her beauty self on the mirror.Her eyes sparked brighter when she found another obsidian orbs radiated with love coming forward.He stopped and hold her hands who smiles breathtakingly.Her eyes withered sadly and stomach churns in pain as she sess him kissed the her knucles softly.That should have been her.Not the woman who is standing beside her with more luxorious gown.She should have been the one to hold his arm close to her.She should have been the one to spends her lifetime with him.Not her.Seeing them holding each other closely and smiles widely looking at her,instead of crying and sreaming,she chocked back her sobs and smiles.

"Congratulations on your wedding."

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It has been four months. Naalala ko pa rin lahat. Di pala madaling makalimot. Somehow, today, Naisip kong basahin ang isang notebook kung saan sinusulutan kita araw araw. Matagal ko ng tinigil magsulat dun for the hopes of baka mas mabilis kitang makalimutan. Sana pala di ko na lang binasa. Sana pala, di ko na lang kinuha. Masakit parin. Masakit pa rin isipin at tangapin na yung taong pinagkatiwalaan mo, yung taong binigay mo ng buong buo ang sarili mo, kaya kang bitawan ng ganun ganun na lang. Sasabihin sayong ayaw na niya, sasabihin sayong di na niya kaya.

Kaya siguro mahirap kasi, naniwala ako. naniwala ako sa lahat ng sinabi mo. Siguro ako yung taong mabilis maniwala, mabilis magtiwala, mabilis umunawa. *sigh*

di ko naman isesend to sayo, so, dito na lang to. Sa totoo lang, iniisip pa rin kita. Madalas kang pa ring sumasagi sa isip ko. May mga bagay, may mga pagkakataon na sana pwede kong ipakita sayo o ishare sayo kasi alam ko matutuwa ka.

Alam ko naman na masaya ka na. So anu para istorbohin kita. BS nga lang, parang ako pa ata dehado, ako na nga iniwan, parang ako pa ung mas lalong nasaktan. Ganun ata talaga. Ganun siguro talaga.