#damniterika

you’re at a high school party faith. they must be thrilled to see a hot college girl there ey ey

Did you not tell them, or do they just not be like "oh ariel you're like in a shit ton of pain and go to treatments all the time? oh that's normal dude"

I pretty much just don't tell them unless i feel comfortable with telling them or the amount of hospital related stuff i've been doing has been so much that it starts getting odd and suspicious/worrying so i kinda have to tell them so i don't have to keep acting weird and making up things... I just don't tell people tho because if i did i fear that they'd start acting strangely towards me or start pitying me. Maybe even act as if i'm so weak and fragile that they feel the need to constantly look after me when i'm around them as if they're my mother/care taker...

(which all has happened before. Thank god i don't explain the disease by saying "well it's kinda like cancer but instead of tumors trying to kill you it's your own freakin red blood cells misshaping which tries to kill you and there's really no proper treatment or cure or medication for it really this shit is just pure trial and error for the medical industry!" because then all hell would break out)

Yeah my brother and dad have it and can relate but they're just gonna tell me "welcome to the club! get over it!" So i just kinda vent on here...strangers can read it yeah but i'll most likely never meet the majority of you guys (unfortunately) and no one really says anything to me about it (or any of my personal things that i talk about on here really), besides other people who also have S.C on here (which is comforting, it's nice to talk to people who are able to relate and aren't just family members), so it's sorta like a public journal but no one seems to really care (in a good way) so i don't have to worry about people freaking out on me or judging/pitying me and it's nice....

I like being able to vent on here and not having anyone send hate or freak out on me, or having a therapist or family member worry over me and my own mental health because whenever i vent out to real people they get scared and think i'm suicidal or overreacting or "shouldn't be depressed over it because it's something i'm born with and i just have to live and get use to/over it" (so says my dad...) 

pls dont

wait like legit arm not armpit hair? girls actually do that? jfc man

yeah arm hair

like the shit that grows on your arms

you do look good its that christmas swaggy

yuss christmas swaggy