#dailybasementpost

Bruh I woke up and was gonna tell my bf something. Like I was mid sentence as I sat up and turned to tell him. And then was immediately extremely confused why he wasn’t there.

I know I talk in my sleep sometimes. But this was like I was mid sentence telling him about something i thought he would find interesting or replying to something he said and was offended he had the audacity to not be there.

Which I thought was kinda funny.

I noticed my dreams were a little different feeling and sillier than normal somewhat, but also had more storylines. (I can’t really remember cause they kinda faded. But I really liked that new candle I bought in my dream but also didn’t want my apartment to constantly smell like pecans?)

I feel like I’ve hit a progress point somehow with my subconscious, where it’s like

“Oh,okay. Maybe this isn’t that scary. It is just normal.”

I’ve always had super vivid story dreams, so I think allowing my subconscious to explore shifting in my dreamscape is like letting it happen in a safe space kinda for it with no pressure.

Kinda like learning to ride a bike.

You can do it, you just gotta get your balance right. But that can be hard when you have someone yelling in your ear constantly

“WHY ARENT YOU BALANCING. YOU GOTTA JUST DO IT. YOURE TAKING FOREVER. “

Just being able to try it out for yourself with no pressure so you can get the feel for it. Maybe you scrape your knees abit or take a tumble.

Wait.

WAIT.

I think I have shifted before without realizing it. It was always when I was asleep.

There’s been multiple times over the years I’ve woke up in bed and gotten a text in the middle of the night and checked it.

Fell back asleep.

And there was no text??

I was pondering on my sleep and dreams. And this just hit me??

At one point I remember when I woke up I was like oh am I still dreaming? And did reality checks and was like no I’m awake.

I could feel my comforter and pillows just like normal.

EXCUSE ME.

I wasn’t even trying to shift, I think it was when I was upset about a bf or my friend. And I just wanted them to text me. It was just waking up like normal with the text, but in the morning they never messaged.

I’ve always struggled in the past because I can tell time or read in my dreams. Only thing that would ever get me was the fingers. That’s how I figured out to know I’m dreaming.

But there have been many “dreams?” In my life where they were so vivid and clear and grounded. Like I was there, and they always remain in my memory with the same vividness. No fading like dreams, only like memories..

I was laying in bed with my so. And just half asleep thinking about things, I have a project I’m working on so I was daydreaming about until my brain kinda just went quiet and I was just empty headed.

Right? 👀

Next thing I know, everything goes completely dark. And I can’t feel anything at all. It’s like the bed and everything was just gone. Nothing existed just me.

Needless to say, it spooked me. Because I’m used to the whole you’re falling asleep and your blood pressure drops and you’re falling. (Mine was always accompanied with me falling down the stairs at my house)

But this, was not that.

It’s like everything just *boop* gone.

Since I wasn’t expecting it, it scared me awake because I was scared my so was gone. Bless him, he was still sound asleep through me clutching him like a madwoman.

So that was fun? I guess the affirmations worked, just not when I expected it? 🤔

What do you mean I told a red mannequin head of the 9th doctor I wanted to shift because I needed a break, and was like nothing dangerous I wanna chill while he’s flirting with me.

My favorite was this morning when I woke up and checked my subliminal playlist I had going that only has like 7 videos suddenly had a ton of them. Dude I just kept scrolling and it didn’t stop.

I’m just like huh. I don’t remember adding those.

AND I JUST GO BACK TO SLEEP.

wake up and it’s back to normal.

Things are interesting to say the least.

And I fell asleep. And I woke up to my phone going off. I try to snooze it but end up accidentally calling the group chat. And everyone is talking and suddenly I hear my dead friend. Which really wakes me up. And I’m like sobbing quietly. Because I know he’s alive here and causually I’m like oh my bad guys I didn’t mean to call. I gotta go.

Suddenly I hear a knock at the door, and I’m like oh it’s my landlord coming to get the rest of the Internet stuff. (Which is something I’ve been expecting here. )

Now the room is off, but I haven’t really registered it yet. I’m like oh my bad, lemme get dressed. And suddenly this lady and a crew barges in. And I’m like uh..?

And now I’m actually looking around and the tv is just the mount and the cords around it are exposed. And one of the guys is like “oh we are just doing the usual maintenance.”

And I’m like oh yeah, I just forgot.

Now I’m pretty sure this is where the shift happens cause I’m in my dorm room suddenly. (The uniform was like Wednesdays with the black and purple) the dorm was gorgeous btw. It has a huge rose colored soaking tub with these beautiful flower lamps around it and the bed is to my left. My door is in front of where I’m standing. (And I’m currently trying not to freak out) also there was a whole huge bathroom too??

My mom comes in and is doting on me like “how are you doing? are you settling in good?” Someone walked by the door and made a comment about my violin. And she was gushing about how I played violin and how she worries cause I get too wrapped up into it.

Meanwhile I’m smiling and nodding while internally losing my mind because holy fuck I shifted.

I finally shoo my mom out and I’m like oh my god. I shifted. I fucking did it. I could see the reflection of the light on individual wood grain of my desk. I’m like I need to chill, so I walk around campus. Which is beautiful and huge. It was also a perfect sunny day, and the grass was a lush green.

I run into a friend of mine, and I’m like

“hey I need to ask you a question.” And she’s like “yeah?”

“Is Drew alive?”

And she looked at me funny and replied “yeah?”

And I was like “okay thanks. I’ll see you later”

I can feel the shift disconnecting slightly because I’m so excited. But I keep focusing because I don’t want to leave yet. (The disconnect feeling was weird it was like things unfocused slightly and white haze would kinda leak in until I focused)

So I end up back at my dorm and end up shifting back because I was starving and really wanted my Lima beans and ham in the fridge.

But the shift back was I pictured my fridge and felt myself pulled back here.

Lately it’s been about accepting it’s okay and I don’t have to feel guilty for leaving. And even if others don’t believe me, I still know the truth.

I’ve also had a shift to a similar cr, like my contacts are now both the same color when they used to be slightly different.

I just feel so proud, like we are in this together pookie.

You know your first memory, like you’re a child and you gain consciousness.

You just kinda *windows start up noise* and you’re just there?

So, I was getting dressed and hadn’t put my contacts in yet, but when I did I was stunned. Like damn I’m just out here looking this good. The self concept mindset and affirmation are working babyyyy. 💪✨

>percy camo ❤️