Today is such a hard day... Happy Birthday to a son that barely knows me... Breaks my heart believe m3... Wish I couldda sang him sweet lullabies When he was a baby.. changed a diaper or somethiN No parks on a sunny day... No tears dried when you fell... No pictures in a frame... ..no tucks in at night... No checking the dark when you were scared Its a failure kind of feelin For this daddy... When he was a baby... But the moments were void of me I didn't know he existed... Not sure he knew about me... Wasn't til he was 7... He burst into my life... And as happy As I wanted to be The shock and impossibility Shook me... Rocked my family... Almost destroyed my marriage... Kinda thing... But the importance was this young soul... So new to me.... Said to be a part of me... I embraced him before paternity I knew he was mine by just looking at him... I never questioned his legitimacy He is my son..my blood... The missing part of my symphony... I miss you son...dearly.... Anything you need... I am here implicitly Begging God brings you home To me safely...when you are ready... Being a parent without a child is hell.. It was never a choice of mine... You were never meant to go away... Praying you hear my sorrow Praying you come home one day... I LooVe you... We LooVe you Daddy... Happy Birthday... #happybirthday #blessings #dadlovesyou #whereveryouare #imissyou #timelost (at Orlando, Florida) https://www.instagram.com/p/CapewVkLxpR/?utm_medium=tumblr
