I'm so mad I want those teenage(show/coming of age movie) rites of passage so bad
I'm almost an adult and I've never been to middle or highschool, never a school dance or prom(prom!!!!!), never had a real crush or a first kiss, I WANT to go out and do dumb shit after school with a gaggle of teenage friends, get into trouble, something outside of and unrelated to my house or family or online
I want to freak out over tests and being late to class and petty drama, worry about real life, something that isnt just in my head, have a real life at all, have any kind of reason, do things cause I want to, not to just make it through the day.
and instead I spend all my time alone in my room daydreaming or reading or anything to feel like I dont exist. I don't care if the classic teen stuff is unrealistic or overrated(by people who didn't have to live their teen years in hell or are old enough to forget the badness) I still want it
